feeling scared

[midnight51]

why do i feel all this tension i feel so heavy like someone is squeezing my chest i'm so afraid and i dont even know what i'm afraid of i am afraid of people and afraid of myself i feel so alone i want to hide i feel so hopeless
i feel like i have lost myself and theres no way to get it back and i keep losing myself every day and there's no way for me to fight
and everything i do is hurting the people around me and it makes me want to go away but if i go away i will hurt everyone more and it will hurt me too and i can't escape and i just want to escape

 

[Chairman201]

Its from carrying around issues that are unresolved. Keep talking about it, find a therapist or member of the clergy you can
trust and talk to. Start going to church regularly - or check out other religions. Get on anti-depressants to take the edge off. Go to Family Anonyomous meetings or another 12-step group more to your liking. Go to a bookstore and find the spirituality/self-help section. For example, read "Man's Search for Meaning", written by a survivor of Hitler's death camp - Auschwitz. It helped me at my low point, and still does. Good Luck and push yourself to stay busy. Two more things - one from a group of people in exile here in america: Take a shower or two everyday, you'll feel better. Don't stay inside too much. Get out of the house in the mornings - act as if the house was on fire. (OH, and learn how to pray - correctly - to get the things you desperately need. There are prayers which, if done well, get real results. (Rule of thumb: twice a day for 21 straight days.) You'll be AMAZED at what the good lord will do.

Chairman201