feeling down...

feeling down...
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phoster

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Im having a bad morning. I lost my cool with my baby again yesterday. I am full of such rage and anger that it feels like it owns me much of the time. I feel so helpless to control it, and so out of control. I feel like therapy may not help me. I mean it was great to tell someone, and yes I feel better about myself, but that hasnt translated into living better. I guess Im just feeling sorry for myself this morning, but Im very sad and alone right now.
 
Hey Phos... I'm not having a great morning myself so I'm with you on that. I also am probably not the best person to be giving this advice since I skipped therapy altogether last week, but I do know it helps. And it doesn't happen overnight, much to my frustration. I've been in that "this is not helping - what is the point" place many times. The first step is the feeling better, but it takes a while to have that translate into better actions without effort.

I hate when people bestow this advice on me, but I find myself about to give it to you:
"You didn't become this way overnight, you aren't going to be able to change it overnight either."

Be patient with yourself (and your baby) if you can. PM me if you need to.

-Sean
 
Brother Phoster,

You're human. You're not perfect, and the stuff you have to deal with doesn't make it any easier. What more can I say?

You're a fine man with a good heart, bro. Never doubt it. I don't excuse your losing it with the baby, but it's understandable and I know you'll do better. Sometimes, that's what we have to ask ourselves at the end of the day, did I make the world a better place? Did I do the best that I could? If no, acknowledge it and do better, if yes, than that's all you can do..

Brother, I'm there for you.

Peace and love,

Scot
 
phoster,

Hang in there. Work through those feelings of anger and rage. Find a safe and constructive release when they get to be too much, your baby needs you to be cool, calm and collected. You have it within you, find it.

Peace,
Bill
 
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