feeling authentic
Not long ago SA memories and flashbacks devastated me. Lately I have been seeing them more objectively. I don't know if this is a step in recovery, denial, or a kind of disassociation.
The devastation seemed more authentic. This new way of seeing things seems surreal, something like a story that someone else is telling.
I don't know if it is a coincidence or a result but this stuff started at the time that I started having memories concerning my father. My brain tells me that such stuff is impossible, it so jars with the image that he has always had in my mind and to all others that I know/knew.
It is understandable that my mind might shut down in regards to remembering stuff about him but why would it also have an effect on how I think about the other memories I have concerning other perps?
Anyone else experienced something like this?
The devastation seemed more authentic. This new way of seeing things seems surreal, something like a story that someone else is telling.
I don't know if it is a coincidence or a result but this stuff started at the time that I started having memories concerning my father. My brain tells me that such stuff is impossible, it so jars with the image that he has always had in my mind and to all others that I know/knew.
It is understandable that my mind might shut down in regards to remembering stuff about him but why would it also have an effect on how I think about the other memories I have concerning other perps?
Anyone else experienced something like this?