February 2009....she found me again

BruisedSpirit

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i woke up one morning to find a greeting card stuffed under my door.

It was from her...she had missed me sooo much, she said.

Inside the card were photographs taken of me...of us....from back then...

I freaked out and shredded the card the photos...i couldn't deal with being confronted by those images and the memories that went along with them.

That was a new beginning...with her...

do what she wanted or the pictures get sent to the family of the other boy also in the pictures...with me...and with her...

i couldn't let her do that to him...i had let him down so badly all those years ago....he was dead...because of me...

it lasted until early in June of this year. The last time she contacted me she told me she was leaving town and that i'd never see her again....as if that information would upset me...

she's been gone again for two months and i'm stll waiting, expect her return. I still watch for her outside my apartment and see her in the rear view mirror in my car but when I turn to look, she isn't there.

I don't sleep much, and when I do it is filled with fear and dreams of her showing up again...
 
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