Family outing

[JonathanKhonsu]

My mom outed me to my Aunt and I think possibly to the whole side of my dads family. I'm like still in shock. I was like eek. This at a time that I have begun to realized that what happened has effected me like sexually or at lest questioning if it has. I have always tried to state that the SA did not effect me in that way. I mean sure I admite that I'm now more skitish and have nightmeres and stuff, but it was always like that was one place where it didn't touch me: in who I like and how. But now I realize that it does effect how. I'm not sure why or the resoning but part of me...I don't know. But now it sort of puts into question a lot of stuff for me. I know I like guys the question is do I like girls too. Who am I? I'm tired of fighting this battle. I'm a christian does that effect who I can be with? should it? I feal so alone and lost right now. No one knows except for my T. And I'm too busy being scared to tell anyone.

 

[brian-z]

Jonathan,

I'm starting to have mixed feelings about being outed. I kinda went though the same thing. And in a way I'm glad because now they know, and I don't think I would have told on my one. There where a few ripples here and there, those members of the pack of jaclels that I must call my family that don't like me, just disliked me more. The rest got over it. The only person whos reaction suprised me was my grandmother, who said "well, I'm not suprised he really enjoys watching changing rooms" and that was that she didn't care if I was gay or not.

Now, the vaidations issue. The "you can't really because you where sexualy abused" or "you need to see someone to make you normal(striaght)" and so forth. I got some of THAT too. And that I say "I'm here, I'm Queer, now please get off it"

Just be who you are and things will work out for the best.