EMDR worries
Hey guys, I started to see a T with a plan to do EMDR when I am ready. I have at least 2 fears:
1). I will remember new details that will be scary
2). My mind has made all of this up and I will find out nothing happened.
I have no real solid memories of abuse, but I have loads of physical reactions to thoughts, ideas, images of what may have happened, reactions to things that may have been said etc. I have been reading 'The Body Keeps the Score' so I am going on the premise that something bad happened or why else would I be triggered and have strong reactions.
Does anyone else worry about this kind of stuff? I know that new details could come up during EMDR, but I worry that they will be something different than what i think happened, maybe not as bad, maybe worse..who knows. My brain has hidden something from me for 40 years so I am feeling unsettled about it.
Not sure what I am looking for...could my mind have made up such real sensations and flashes of images and real terror inside me, if nothing happened? It seems unlikely but I wonder if anyone else has had this kind of worry.
Thanks guys...feeling a bit unsteady.
Bryan
1). I will remember new details that will be scary
2). My mind has made all of this up and I will find out nothing happened.
I have no real solid memories of abuse, but I have loads of physical reactions to thoughts, ideas, images of what may have happened, reactions to things that may have been said etc. I have been reading 'The Body Keeps the Score' so I am going on the premise that something bad happened or why else would I be triggered and have strong reactions.
Does anyone else worry about this kind of stuff? I know that new details could come up during EMDR, but I worry that they will be something different than what i think happened, maybe not as bad, maybe worse..who knows. My brain has hidden something from me for 40 years so I am feeling unsettled about it.
Not sure what I am looking for...could my mind have made up such real sensations and flashes of images and real terror inside me, if nothing happened? It seems unlikely but I wonder if anyone else has had this kind of worry.
Thanks guys...feeling a bit unsteady.
Bryan