Elderly Survivors

[Bob Wheelock]

I am 65 yo. I always knew I had been molested but my mind went blank at the point I was naked. Since the last time I was raped, I have never had any physical intimacy with anyone. As I age, I feel a hunger for closeness, hugging for instance, but not for some 65 yo but for a young person in his early 20's, and it would not be sexual, it would just be the feeling of holding and being held.
I suppose that I am an odd case in that I never had a single physically intimate moment that was not torture. Never married, never dated and in fact would only be interested in a gay relationship. I just wonder if other older men have the fear that they will never have a positive experience of physical affection? I feel hellishly lonely.

 

[Broken]

Its never too late. Its good your coming out about it and trying to deal with it. It isnt your fault, but things can and do change once you start to acknowledge what happened and start processing it.

 

[michael Joseph]

you are not the only one, me too I'll hold you, on NY in sept if you need it. Hey we have all been hurt right?

 

[michael Joseph]

It has always been adream to be held non-sexually by a man. To be love by a man the right way. the closemess the warmth possibly crying from all the past hurt.