drug dependinices
drug dependinices
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Hauser
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I was drinking about a 5th of Burbon every 3 to 4 days. I have quit only at the behest of my T's. I can function just fine using alcohol because I only drink it at home (alone) and it never affected my work. But I'm quitting it for a while just to say I can do it.
Drugs and alcohol are the LEAST of my problems.
I'm looking to other things to occupy my time now, (yes alcohol made good company for me). I just looked into joining a Tae Kwon Do class, it wasn't the setting and instruction style I was looking for but I got re-interested in it and now I'm looking at other places that will teach it.
I've heard others here on the board mention that it's important to find other interests if you do quit drugs so that's what I'm gonna do.
Drugs and alcohol are the LEAST of my problems.
I'm looking to other things to occupy my time now, (yes alcohol made good company for me). I just looked into joining a Tae Kwon Do class, it wasn't the setting and instruction style I was looking for but I got re-interested in it and now I'm looking at other places that will teach it.
I've heard others here on the board mention that it's important to find other interests if you do quit drugs so that's what I'm gonna do.
roadrunner
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Sai,
Drugs and alcohol almost finished me off when I was a student. I used them to numb out and forget about things. I felt worthless and unlovable and all the stuff I got up to when I was drunk and high seemed to confirm that this was the case. As things got worse, of course I had to resort to more and more, various dangerous combinations, and so on.
If you are using alcohol and drugs to help you in your recovery, then, just speaking from my experience, I would wonder what sort of recovery you mean. Drink and drugs never helped me to face my problems or deal with them; they never allowed me to accept my feelings for what they were and try to cope with the issues they raised. So far as I can see, what they do is allow us a brief respite and then leave us exactly where we were before.
I guess my take on all this is that drugs and alcohol are very short-term and dangerous coping mechanisms. I see them as having a lot to do with denial, but nothing to contribute to recovery. They don't help us build anything that we need for securing a happy and fulfilling future for ourselves.
I hope you don't take me as being opposed to alcohol and drugs in principle - I'm not. I still drink and I see soft drugs as more or less harmless and certainly less dangerous than alcohol. I just have very serious doubts about the role of either in recovery from sexual abuse, or at least, in recovery as I understand it.
Much love,
Larry
Drugs and alcohol almost finished me off when I was a student. I used them to numb out and forget about things. I felt worthless and unlovable and all the stuff I got up to when I was drunk and high seemed to confirm that this was the case. As things got worse, of course I had to resort to more and more, various dangerous combinations, and so on.
If you are using alcohol and drugs to help you in your recovery, then, just speaking from my experience, I would wonder what sort of recovery you mean. Drink and drugs never helped me to face my problems or deal with them; they never allowed me to accept my feelings for what they were and try to cope with the issues they raised. So far as I can see, what they do is allow us a brief respite and then leave us exactly where we were before.
I guess my take on all this is that drugs and alcohol are very short-term and dangerous coping mechanisms. I see them as having a lot to do with denial, but nothing to contribute to recovery. They don't help us build anything that we need for securing a happy and fulfilling future for ourselves.
I hope you don't take me as being opposed to alcohol and drugs in principle - I'm not. I still drink and I see soft drugs as more or less harmless and certainly less dangerous than alcohol. I just have very serious doubts about the role of either in recovery from sexual abuse, or at least, in recovery as I understand it.
Much love,
Larry
Kirk Wayne
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I stopped a thirty year old drinking and drug career and that was when the full force of my past abuse fell on me, I had nothing to supress it with anymore. I drank to hide the shame and disgust but it led me into other destructive things like violence, criminal activity, prostitution, three attempted suicides, long stays in psychiatric and general hospitals. I actually stopped in 1994. I disclosed in 2000 and I have had a couple of relapses, the last a couple of years ago, but I have to admit that life today is a whole lot better and it enabled me to look at my abuse full in the face and seek out professional support, something I could not have done if I was pissed all the time.
However I still miss oblivion even to this day but I now see it for what it was, it was an enabler that enabled me to stay quiet.
Kirk
However I still miss oblivion even to this day but I now see it for what it was, it was an enabler that enabled me to stay quiet.
Kirk
Sai, You shouldn't feel ashamed about your use. It is what it is. I can say that I am an addict and alcoholic. You're not alone.
I found using was a vicious cycle. Drinking/drugging helped me cope with my low esteem and life stressors. However, after using, my stressors remained, I felt guilty and my esteem was even more shot. So I used more.
Getting through the day is tough. But I think it will get tougher if you continue using. The support from AA/NA groups is unbelievable...that is...when YOU are ready for it.
I used every day for 20+ years. I have been clean 6 months. Putting down the drink/drug is one of the most difficult things I have done...but it is probably the BEST thing I have done for myself and my recovery.
Drop me a message if you need more insight or just an open ear. You're not alone.
Peace
I found using was a vicious cycle. Drinking/drugging helped me cope with my low esteem and life stressors. However, after using, my stressors remained, I felt guilty and my esteem was even more shot. So I used more.
Getting through the day is tough. But I think it will get tougher if you continue using. The support from AA/NA groups is unbelievable...that is...when YOU are ready for it.
I used every day for 20+ years. I have been clean 6 months. Putting down the drink/drug is one of the most difficult things I have done...but it is probably the BEST thing I have done for myself and my recovery.
Drop me a message if you need more insight or just an open ear. You're not alone.
Peace
roadrunner
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Sai,
Direwolf makes a really important point:
Recognizing that we have a problem is a good thing, but what we need to do is use our energy to solve the problem rather than to tear ourselves up about it.
Much love,
Larry
Direwolf makes a really important point:
That is so true. Shame just makes us get even more down on ourselves and concentrate on our failures rather than on our potential.
Recognizing that we have a problem is a good thing, but what we need to do is use our energy to solve the problem rather than to tear ourselves up about it.
Much love,
Larry
crystal meth,but it didn't help me recover any in fact it made it that much eaiser to keep it all inside ,also i didn't really care if i did too much ,so i always did too much .it was just another wall i built that i have to climb over now.
From my own experiences I drank every day for over 22 years.I also smoked pot from 15-25.I had problems coping with my CSA when I drank but as I sobered up I had more of a problem coping. I guess my crutches weren't there to lean on .I guess what I am trying to say for someone like me who is very easily upset at a change of routine using drugs and alcohol would hamper recovery.Some people can use contolled substances during recovery from CSA but I allready know thats not for me, Good luck PJ