Downward spiral...

Downward spiral...
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survive75

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Hey all... not doing well this week. Drinking, acting out, cancelled therapy yesterday. I can barely function at work... don't want to be here at all.

I feel like I'm self-sabotaging everything I've worked for over the past year. This is so frustrating...
 
Sean,

You've hit a bad spot, and it's understandable that you react negatively to negative stuff. You recognize it, though, and that's a positive.

I want you to do a favor for me, though. I want you to call your therapist and reschedule ASAP. You'll need the support to get back on the road.

If you need anything, please PM me.

Peace and love,

Scot
 
Sean,

I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling.

I think I can relate, as I'm currently getting sidetracked in a lot of areas. Today I'm overdue with a project for my boss at work. Yet everytime I try to get into it, there's just this scared and angry inner child inside of me digging in his heals and refusing to go forward.

I wish I knew what I could give him that would be healthy and still satisfy him. If you figure it out, let me know. Take care of yourself.

Dan
 
(((((((((( Sean ))))))))))

Put down that bottle (or can) and pick up the phone. Give your therapist a call.

It is these times that we need them the most that we want to go the least. Make the extra effort, you can stop the downward spiral.

It's okay to stumble, now get up,
Bill
 
I'm sorry to hear of your pain. I wish I had words of wisdom I could give you that could help you (I wish I had words of wisdom that would help me!) But I do understand. I fall alot too. My emotions surface and I can't control the pain and fear. But if you've been there before, you know you can get back. Do take care.

Jon
 
Sean
we all backslide sometimes, recovery is bloody hard work and sometimes it just seems easier to say "f**k this, I'm outta here!"

But, just the fact you posted that your backsliding means you haven't gone back to square one. You recognise what's happening, that's more than we did before we started recovery isn't it?

The most important thing is not to beat yourself up over it, don't feel guilty about the backsliding, it's gonna happen! instead feel good about recognising it.
Then work on a plan, drink a bit less, act out a bit less, and phone your therapist - and tell them what's going on. Maybe a short break would do you good?

I'm sure we all get in a bit of a hole, however far through our recoveries we are. I'm in a bit of one as well at the moment. But I know it, as you do, and I'm trying not to feel guilty about it, and focusing on the positives - however small they are.
Quite often our backsliding is triggered by something we don't recognise, something entirely unconnected with our abuse and seemingly trivial.
Looking for those triggers can work wonders, I know what my trigger is at the moment and it's entirely out of my control. But I can still make efforts to use my support and experience to lessen the effects.

Recovery doesn't happen overnight unfortunately, but it does happen.

Dave
 
O was reading your post and I started to cry I wish I hope that you'll let it pass it may take a couple of days but if you can not drink or use it just might pass for me it always takes a few days and all I can do is go to work and come home and sleep...but it passes to some degree where I can stand it..

Dwayne

Originally posted by survive75:
Hey all... not doing well this week. Drinking, acting out, cancelled therapy yesterday. I can barely function at work... don't want to be here at all.

I feel like I'm self-sabotaging everything I've worked for over the past year. This is so frustrating...
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I have been down that road several times. Seems like I always make it out the other end, but these periods of intense depression always leave a lasting mark.

Call your T, make an appointment, if that fails head for the nearest emergancy room. Seriously! The hospital has helped me stay alive a couple of times. There are people who care and can help put you back on a more positive road.

Aden
 
Originally posted by survive75:


I feel like I'm self-sabotaging everything I've worked for over the past year. This is so frustrating...
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Sean, this is how I have felt the last month, since returning home from a visit home to my family, and things that happen there.

But I am realizing, for myself, that I can not lose what I gained this last year. Because I have knowledge and expereience in dealing with things now that I did not have then. Even if I 'spiral down' some, even if I stumble or even fall some, I will never be back at the beginning again, even if it feel that way for short time.

Try to be patient and good with yourself. When you are going down so much, it is hard to stop it. But it does stop, and all you can do is go back up again. It will happen.

Good luck,

leosha
 
Sean it is really alright to stumble. These stumbles have a way of actually helping in the long run. Nobody here is perfect. Well except for Lloyd :D and Bil1965 :D . Just said that to keep them happy.

Remember we are here through the good times the bad times and then the good times again.
You need a hug
((((((((((((((((((((((SEAN))))))))))))))))))))))
 
Sean,

Have you made that call yet?

Take care,
Bill


Mikey,

Maybe you should call too, your getting delusional. :eek:

Bill
 
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