Down again (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)

Down again (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
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crisispoint

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Once again, another memory, a particle of one, has kicked the s**t out of me.

How much this has affected me, I can't say. It's just horrible that someone saw what was going on, and while I try to put an objective spin on it (thanks, Theo, for the suggestion. It's taken a bit of the edge off), I can't rectify the image I remember with anything that could be remotely considered "acceptable authority response."

A child was being dragged into a room, a hand over his mouth, and nothing's wrong?

I guess I really was nothing. :(

Scot
 
scot,
i am grateful it took the edge off, but i also understand that it still makes no sense. i recall an event from my 8th grade. we were all standing in the lunch line. a friend of mine grabbed a girl's buttock and another friend of mine was in the line of fire when she turned around. my second friend got the slap that should have been given to the first (btw, i was in 8th grade, we never choose our friends wisely then, do we :) ?). my second friend went ballistic (always had rage issues) and went to react to the girl. no punches were thrown, but he was working up to it. the lunchroom monitor intervened and picked my friend up by the neck in a throttle hold and carried him out of the lunch room. that was when i went ballistic, in a very calm manner. i stormed into the principal's office and demanded to speak to him. i told him everything that happened and that the teacher was way out of line. i explained to the girl and apologized to her for her own experience and said i understood, but my friend was innocent of grabbing her. the point is that i went straight to the top and was told to leave the office. nothing was done about the teacher's response that i know of. as i was leaving the office, i encountered him and faced him down and told him in no uncertain terms that what he did was wrong. yes, the situation was escalating, but he was wrong in what he did. the point to this story is that even with a huge crowd of witnesses, the actions of the adult took priority and a kid standing up for a friend is dismissed. you were not worthless, scot, and neither was my friend. it is this blindness for authority that turns many away from questioning obvious abuse. my friend could have been hurt or killed because of the way the teacher carried him out in that throttle hold, but no one but me did anything about it. leadership can be a good thing, blind adherance to authority is something else entirely. you never were, nor are, worthless, scot & little scot.
 
Sometimes we were made to feel like we were nothing. But we were a kid, who was relying on adults to make life beautiful, safe, and good for us.

Perhaps all we were to our perps was a sex toy. But we were always a kid, a wonderful kid, who was betrayed and violated. It is difficult for me to understand the psychdynamics that allows an adult to mistreat a child, any child.

It is good to remind ourselves that not only are we valuable human beings today, we were in those times as well.

Bob
 
Scot,

NEVER FORGET THAT YOU ARE SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I could say or offer more!

Teejay
 
Scot,
I guess I really was nothing.
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Bzzzt! Bad guess. More like, how could any decent responsible human being see such a thing and not take action? Guess that witness wasn't one.

It was never your fault. You're only human and therefore incapable of ever having done something to deserve it. You do matter, a great deal, to us, those that write to you and those who only admire your ability to speak out while they lurk.

I can't say when it will be better, but I hope it is soon. You don't deserve to have to feel so bad, either.

Thanks,

Joe
 
Scot,

You are something. Something special. Don't forget that.

Man, I feel for you. I do know your feeling.

Take care,
Bill
 
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