don't think this is an older thing?....maybe just wiser :)

don't think this is an older thing?....maybe just wiser :)
M

markgreyblue

Registrant
so often it's my nature - when i decide to do something - i sort of see how to do it - and bound ahead.... and do it-

i would find though - especially since begining at healing -

and the different nature of my efforts -
and as things are revealed to me -

i am more tired - or more aware of how tired.

--

this though - has brought me to here -

i know now - certain activities can really drain

me of a lot of energy. aka "take a lot out of me"

and i am ok with that- i'm shifting gears to not

put myself out of situations - that will do that.


i've had a lot of push and pull on this.


.....no more!

be healthy - be happy -

live long.

mark
 
Mark,

What you are talking about sounds very much like something I learned as a father but have found useful for so many aspects of my life. It boils down to this question: "Do I have to win this one?" ;)

Much love,
Larry
 
Larry - "choose your battles?"

I am so freakin' tired - i want to scream - lol

but so lonely - it's a double edge piece of shit. LOL.

pulling my gorgeous tresses out ...

oy

talk to you soon LC

xo
Mark (hehe)
 
Mark,

Please! No! Not the gorgeous tresses!!!! :eek:

Seriously, yes, I think it is a matter of choosing one's battles, and also of saying, hmmmm, do I really need to get stressed out over that? No? Wonderful! So fuck it for today. ;)

Much love,
Larry
 
it's true larry -

even creative ventures -

do something creative

even wanting to please folks

or keep in touch -

y'know?

....keep the energy and drive where you need it to be ....

choosing wisely:)


have a good one Larry! ()

Mark
 
it was very funny -

last night - i needed to slob out - so badly

and i did -

totally - did 'fuck all'

i went to bar on Church street -

it's called "slacks" - i like the guys and gals there -

it's a lesbian own bar - and the gay guys there - are nice -

one is a dancer with Cirque du Soleil -
and another is a musician

there is an english girl there -

who likes to sing - and

so funny - though i had one glass of red wine

she got me to dance ballet with her in the middle of the bar !

why not!?

i've no one to impress....

it's was very high shcol and fun.
hhe
 
cool post. i like the mantra of questioning the winning of all battles. i have it in my head that in order to be successful i have to be good at all aspects of my field of study. that's a lot of pressure i put on myself and is not realistic. i do that in other aspects of my life, too--like recovery. if i have a setback, i get discouraged and am not very self-motivated to move through it and move ahead. it's very draining.

oh, lord, it's so hard to be humble when you're perfect in every way :-D.

love,
scott
 
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