Doing good today :-)

Doing good today :-)
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fhorns

Registrant
I'm riding high right now. There have been two reminders lately that I am not slow. May be meds, may be chronic depression, but I lifted today.
So that leaves me to ask "do I come only because I'm depressed? What happened to the fun? Am I a victim? When did life become so unenthusiastic?"

I write because your ideas always interest me. Thanks.
 
fhorns,

I think you are discovering how recovery can be what we call "the rollercoaster". Something happens that illuminates and relieves us and we feel so "up" and "riding high", as you say. But then something else clobbers us and we feel we have been knocked back a step or two. So until we learn to cope with the new challenges and things level out a bit more, it really does feel like an emotional rollercoaster.

You ask a good question:

What happened to the fun?
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That too is something I remember feeling, but that was when I was pretty new to recovery and was thinking about it all the time. It dominated and defined me, just as the abuse had dominated and defined me before that.

Good things are still happening to us, and for us, but they all seem to unreal and petty compared to the terrible truths and problems we are trying to face. I guess learning to develop a perspective, like everything else about recovery, just takes time.

Hang in there my friend. There are a lot of guys here who know exactly how you feel.

Much love,
Larry
 
Good things are still happening to us, and for us, but they all seem to unreal and petty compared to the terrible truths and problems we are trying to face. I guess learning to develop a perspective, like everything else about recovery, just takes time.


That is too true. I define myself, and others have, by my being aware, and making others aware, of my history. The latter sentence is what I need to hold on to.
 
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