Does anyone wonder what became of the photos an abuser took?
That is sad! Not only were you "not wanted" by your bio parents, your adoptive parents obviously had different plans for you. Nothing like going from bad to worse! So sorry! Peace bro.They weren't married, at least my mother wasn't. I was given up for adoption and my parents went back to Norway.
in the '50s out of wedlock, kids were not wanted. at least I wasn't aborted. I got a really nice family the only problem is they're all in Norway. But my stepparents were kind of harsh and mean to me. The photos that were taken of me in the orphanage where I was smiling and laughing. None of the photos were taken of me by my stepparents, there were no smiles. I wonder why. I smiled more in the porn photos.That is sad! Not only were you "not wanted" by your bio parents, your adoptive parents obviously had different plans for you. Nothing like going from bad to worse! So sorry! Peace bro.
Yeah, like so many other kids being forced to strip and do porn. All smiles! and then the tears after. Kids know when they are being abused, doesn't matter really how old they are either. Kids are smart!in the '50s out of wedlock, kids were not wanted. at least I wasn't aborted. I got a really nice family the only problem is they're all in Norway. But my stepparents were kind of harsh and mean to me. The photos that were taken of me in the orphanage where I was smiling and laughing. None of the photos were taken of me by my stepparents, there were no smiles. I wonder why. I smiled more in the porn photos.
very true. but when I was taken to photoshoots with my best friend there were some real smiles. In the movies, I was forced to smile and laugh. At the parties I was taken to there were no real smiles even if I was taken with my best friend.Yeah, like so many other kids being forced to strip and do porn. All smiles! and then the tears after. Kids know when they are being abused, doesn't matter really how old they are either. Kids are smart!
That's very possible that they still exist and are in circulation. Hopefully, the photos didn't stay localUnless someone else nailed them they probably still exist and circulate (I know I was popular).
When I was 18 I still looked like I was when I was 14 so I had problems with the way I looked when I was 18 and going into the USAF. I felt stupid for not getting a haircut before I left for boot camp. But nothing was ever seen that could have been pinned on me.I'm quite recognizable so they could do some damage.
It gets worse. I voluntarily (after I turned 18 cause legality) did more... Like 2-400 people (personally and several thousand impersonally posted) more. Started with the artistic photos I took to reclaim my body as MY BODY but moved to camming, online sex, and more. Body, face, no identifiable name. I could have broadcast my same body that made many so rich for them to come find and do it all over again... It terrifies me greatly.When I was 18 I still looked like I was when I was 14 so I had problems with the way I looked when I was 18 and going into the USAF. I felt stupid for not getting a haircut before I left for boot camp. But nothing was ever seen that could have been pinned on me.
I don't know how it is today. My photoshoots were taken in the '60s and early '70s so at most photos were in magazines which predated the internet. Sorry you're going through that.I and no one else did that to myself and I don't know how to accept that I gave them what they always wanted without even having to ask
you would be surprised. My best friend's sister (8 years our senior) took photos of her brother and me and she got them into the magazines. I know she traded the photos also.The only pictures I remember the other boy with me who was with me was my perps son and he himself appeared in some of the shots so I have always believed that he produced them for his own use and not to distribute.
Sorry you have to go through all that. I had thousands of photos taken of me and I know there is a lot still out there. Child porn is timeless unfortunatelySadly, I don't have to wonder. Back in 2015 I found out one of the movies and many of the stills of one photo shoot/film weekend have been digitized and are in fact floating around the internet. It was like being victimized all over again. I guess Jon the wannabe Spielberg was right. He kept saying my look was timeless.
Ugh, I guess I never thought about him reaching out to others. I know he is now deceased. I’m not sure what became of the pictures of me and his son or of me with him that his son took. I know we were going to be moving away and they asked for pics to remember the time we spent. His dad approached it like he did everything else taking normal pictures of us then asking us to get naked acting like the camera was put away and bringing it back out after we were both fully naked, erect, and then I would here him click away.you would be surprised. My best friend's sister (8 years our senior) took photos of her brother and me and she got them into the magazines. I know she traded the photos also.
Ugh, I guess I never thought about him reaching out to others. I know he is now deceased. I’m not sure what became of the pictures of me and his son or of me with him that his son took. I know we were going to be moving away and they asked for pics to remember the time we spent. His dad approached it like he did everything else taking normal pictures of us then asking us to get naked acting like the camera was put away and bringing it back out after we were both fully naked, erect, and then I would here him click away.
In that statement you are taking personal responsibility for what was, in reality, caused by those who abused you. Yes, you were of legal age, but your mind, your view of yourself and your sexuality, had been critically compromised by others. Don't blame yourself for those actions. You were not in a state to make a wise decision about such things. I know man, I was there too.I and no one else did that to myself and I don't know how to accept that I gave them what they always wanted without even having to ask
Yeah that is very true. To this day I still don't even comprehend what healthy sexuality would or could look like for me and that makes it hard to make decisions.In that statement you are taking personal responsibility for what was, in reality, caused by those who abused you. Yes, you were of legal age, but your mind, your view of yourself and your sexuality, had been critically compromised by others. Don't blame yourself for those actions. You were not in a state to make a wise decision about such things. I know man, I was there too.
The photo obviously carries a lot of weight and meaning for you, but of course you are the only true judge of whether it's a good photo to use.Never spoke of this. My grandfather took Polaroids of me and i have no idea if he destroyed them or if someone in my family found them and did. He ended up having alzheimers and it was cause of something he did my mom asked if he had done stuff to me when i was 16.
The photo you see in my profile was one he took that my uncle found a few years ago in the manual of that very tractor. I remember when he emailed it to me i had a like a panic attack yet it is a harmless photo. What hit me was how a photo was found after all these years inside a book And i think it was the thought of what if a different photo is in something of his that a relative has. The other was what about ones that were taking with me and the other kid and his grandfather. Yet for some reason I used that photo and now i wonder if I should remove it. I have no photos of myself other than in middle and high school yearbooks.