Bornfree
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That is sad! Not only were you "not wanted" by your bio parents, your adoptive parents obviously had different plans for you. Nothing like going from bad to worse! So sorry! Peace bro.
Does anyone wonder what became of the photos an abuser took?
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in the '50s out of wedlock, kids were not wanted. at least I wasn't aborted. I got a really nice family the only problem is they're all in Norway. But my stepparents were kind of harsh and mean to me. The photos that were taken of me in the orphanage where I was smiling and laughing. None of the photos were taken of me by my stepparents, there were no smiles. I wonder why. I smiled more in the porn photos.
Bornfree
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Yeah, like so many other kids being forced to strip and do porn. All smiles! and then the tears after. Kids know when they are being abused, doesn't matter really how old they are either. Kids are smart!
very true. but when I was taken to photoshoots with my best friend there were some real smiles. In the movies, I was forced to smile and laugh. At the parties I was taken to there were no real smiles even if I was taken with my best friend.
Tableau in Stasis
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Deep breath yeah... I really do. I don't even remember them all but I know some and that's almost more than I wish. Unless someone else nailed them they probably still exist and circulate (I know I was popular). Heck even just the pics my abusive ex has worry me some days. They probably trashed them given how that ended but as that was just last year... I'm quite recognizable so they could do some damage.
That's very possible that they still exist and are in circulation. Hopefully, the photos didn't stay local
When I was 18 I still looked like I was when I was 14 so I had problems with the way I looked when I was 18 and going into the USAF. I felt stupid for not getting a haircut before I left for boot camp. But nothing was ever seen that could have been pinned on me.
Tableau in Stasis
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It gets worse. I voluntarily (after I turned 18 cause legality) did more... Like 2-400 people (personally and several thousand impersonally posted) more. Started with the artistic photos I took to reclaim my body as MY BODY but moved to camming, online sex, and more. Body, face, no identifiable name. I could have broadcast my same body that made many so rich for them to come find and do it all over again... It terrifies me greatly.
Tableau in Stasis
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I and no one else did that to myself and I don't know how to accept that I gave them what they always wanted without even having to ask
I don't know how it is today. My photoshoots were taken in the '60s and early '70s so at most photos were in magazines which predated the internet. Sorry you're going through that.
you would be surprised. My best friend's sister (8 years our senior) took photos of her brother and me and she got them into the magazines. I know she traded the photos also.
Sadly, I don't have to wonder. Back in 2015 I found out one of the movies and many of the stills of one photo shoot/film weekend have been digitized and are in fact floating around the internet. It was like being victimized all over again. I guess Jon the wannabe Spielberg was right. He kept saying my look was timeless.
It was compounded when the prosecutor said and I quote, "I'm not sure how many resources I can dedicate on the word of a disgruntled prostitute." If he was in the room and not just teleconferencing, I would have been arrested for battery.
It was compounded when the prosecutor said and I quote, "I'm not sure how many resources I can dedicate on the word of a disgruntled prostitute." If he was in the room and not just teleconferencing, I would have been arrested for battery.
Sorry you have to go through all that. I had thousands of photos taken of me and I know there is a lot still out there. Child porn is timeless unfortunately
Sawyer49
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Ugh, I guess I never thought about him reaching out to others. I know he is now deceased. I’m not sure what became of the pictures of me and his son or of me with him that his son took. I know we were going to be moving away and they asked for pics to remember the time we spent. His dad approached it like he did everything else taking normal pictures of us then asking us to get naked acting like the camera was put away and bringing it back out after we were both fully naked, erect, and then I would here him click away.
Unfortunately, you can find adult porn from the 1800s. child porn will also never go away. it never gets old
Greybeard
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In that statement you are taking personal responsibility for what was, in reality, caused by those who abused you. Yes, you were of legal age, but your mind, your view of yourself and your sexuality, had been critically compromised by others. Don't blame yourself for those actions. You were not in a state to make a wise decision about such things. I know man, I was there too.