does anyone feel like swiss cheese - i think i am ok with that

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i feel like a swiss cheese -

naturally i stumble bumble fumble

like an errant wire that flips out

and social farst abound -

i think i used to hate myself - for knowing somethings -

and yet - people judging the lacking surfaces -

i don't really give a crap now -

i kind of like that i am a swiss queso -

i think it lets more light in -

i think i see things and can show people things

they don't see so much !

it is inconvenient at times -

but it is me - i like it!

oh there i go --

......
that is so me

 

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i suppose it can lend itself to some big dissapointments in my self at times too

and others' expectation - but -

i think we can love ourselves and each other for what we are -

and yeah for what we are not

 

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maybe it's in those holes is where "I am"

- I started passionately following an interest to do professional creative work for disabled folks today -

being in touch with that - really set the engines
going - and my temper was shorter -

but i knew it - i wasn't at the mercy of it -

and could explain it to those as the impatience happened so we could all laugh at it.

m

 

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it's funny too -

i once made a business letter with mistakes in it -

i called them "bloopers" - i got a laugh and a smile!

mgb

 

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well this was recently - i am only just learning to make it all relative in my head -

 

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i stil have standards of what I like -

and what kind of seems egregious - indlugence -

but like it's a balance
for real. dude.