does anyone care?

does anyone care?

Obi

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been going through a lot, especially the past few weeks and it seems like nobody cares. nobody is reaching out to me and so on... i've tried reaching out to others, but i don't get any response at all or that noone wants to get back with me and see how i'm doing... sometimes i wonder why i even try.... i keep fighting the urge to give up... however, it's getting to a point that it's overwhelming... just can't deal with much more and it seems that noone gives a crap either way.
 
wow, you are in a dark place.
did something just happen recently?
is it the ups and downs like i get?
you seemed ok just a little while ago while you were working on the logo.

this is probably one of the best places to let it bleed.

i am here. listening.
share the pain.
 
it feels so bleak when things are like that obi. I hope you can know that we care... I care. you have been working hard it seems on the logo and all maybe others dont want to interfere. perhaps it is some other mis-reading of your feelings, it is so hard to say. do keep reaching out here man you are so worth it!
Jeff
 
Hi Obi,

I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. Just know that I am sending you love and support. With me, sometimes the only things at my disposal are patience and persistence. Not that I can actually do anything constructive at the moment, but that I just have to wait for a ray of sunshine to appear. It always does, but I don't always believe that when I'm feeling helpless and hopeless.

Don
 
Obi

I am sorry you are having a difficult time. People can be people. We are here for you and I understand having people physically around you that support you is important. Sometimes people do not get the message you are hurting, some are self absorbed or do not know how to support or accept others. Whatever, remember we are here for you. We have been through many similar situations. Vent, scream we listen. I have found letting it out somehow makes me feel better.

Take care of yourself

Kevin
 
Obi,
Just as everyone has said, we care. We may not be with you physically, but we are with you in spirit, and there are a lot of us. We are here and we care.

Sometimes when I'm at my darkest and most hopeless, I find someone I can help. If I don't feel like I can help myself and others are not responding to my need for help, I try to shift my focus to helping others. Depending on what is going on in life, helping someone might range from volunteering at a soup kitchen to small, simple acts of kindness.

I realize that my suggestion sounds like a diversion technique (and I suppose it is), but if you are able to help someone else, it not only results in a good deed, but it can make you feel better about yourself...and that is empowering.

I am sorry you are feeling the way you do, but do not give up. We are here and we care.

Alex
 
funny you say that alex...

i'm always trying to help people, because i care deeply about everyone...

but my extended hand of compassion, care and help keeps getting gnarled to the bone, slapped back by complete and utter unresponsiveness...

can't help others when nobody responds, when they don't want my help, when they won't talk to me...

can't help myself because nobody willing to check in on me... nobody wants to take just a few minutes of their time to even say hello....

i've been trying to occupy my time with other projects, even a project to help all survivors, and i've been met with a lot of resistance.. so much so that i can't deal anymore.. that i feel like putting these projects away and just hide in my bedroom away from everyone, because that is what it feels like.. feels like nobody cares... eh, it's just obi, he doesn't need to be cared about, he doesn't need help, he doesn't need support.. hell, he doesn't need to even be thought about....

so, why not just everyone admit the truth... that i'm not worthy of even a simple hello... i'm not worthy of anyone's time....
 
Hello Obi - the truth is that we all value you, we all care about you, we all admire your talent, we all believe that you're worthy of as much time as you need from us my friend

Love and healing

David
 
my mom passed away a few months ago and i'm dealing with that. my dad is having a severely rough time with it. my grandma is having a hard time with it now that both of her kids have passed away before her. none of them are talking about it though. none of my family is talking about it and won't allow anyone to talk about it.

dad almost didn't come to my wedding because he couldn't handle my mom not being there.

christmas was RUINED. it totally sucked!!!

new issues, that are abuse related, have reared their ugly heads upon me since i got married. it's affecting both me and my wife. i'm battling with that scared little boy in me that is screaming at me because he is afraid...

my birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and i am terrified of what will happen, because since 2002 nothing but incredibly awful things happen on, or within a few days, of my birthday that have made it so bad that i dread my birthday anymore instead of celebrating it. things like friends/family dying. my stuff stolen. being ditched at my own birthday party, and so on and so on and so on...

not much support for the idea i have for wanting to do something for all survivors... a little on here, but there have been some pm's, texts, messages on facebook and so on that have told me to drop it because if there is ANY hint that would have survivors exposed that they are a survivor is harmful... well, i don't want to hurt anyone... don't want to take that chance.... so, i'm dropping it....

quite frankly, there isn't much support for me here... i'm the one that is ALWAYS reaching out, yet nobody takes a few minutes of their time to even wish me a hello, have a good day?
 
sometimes silence speaks louder than words.

you know what i think about silence.

it is the ally of the predator.
that makes it my enemy.

you have been going through some serious trauma lately, as have i, and that is bound to trigger. the pain and damage from isolation and ostracism is a medical fact.
https://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=474686&Main=67394#Post474686

i am experiencing the same emotions of rejection that you are.

i try to remember that the people here can only do so much for me.

many men, if not most of them, are still suffering in silence.
some have not even had the courage to sign up with ms.org,
so this is being read by nonmembers as well,
but they all come here to seek comfort and support.

we can encourage, but not expect, other survivors to speak out.

this, too, is something i struggle with.

i come here to give support, like you, and sometimes i get it back. sometimes my posts go unanswered. sometimes i feel ignored. when i feel neglected here, it triggers, and i leave for a while. i hope this note from me will keep you from doing that.
your words, our words, can help others heal and even prevent CSA. this forum has a noble cause beyond our own needs.


i wish you a good day, and much more... a good life.
my thoughts are with you, now, in your time of need. i feel your pain as my own, for we are in the same circumstances.
please accept my condolences. i can't get anyone to talk about the recent deaths in my family either. silence strikes again. without going into details, the three deaths in our family were tragic and scandalous.
 
We do care Obi, you have a lot of friends here, sometimes it's just hard to see that.

Sorry to hear about your mom. Hang in there and remember there ARE better days ahead.

We haven't really talked much, but feel free to message me.
 
Obi, I am concerned about what appears to be a deep depression setting in on you. Having been there, I can tell you that it can distort one's perception of the world. You may be thinking that nobody cares about you, but there are already two pages of this thread with people saying they care about you and hope you feel better. I am doing the same thing. Please know that I am thinking about you and wish there was more I could do to help other than express my concern and support.

There are times that we feel the world and universe are all aligned against us and that nothing is right. Often times we can have real reasons why that seems so. Life deals with many of us with a heavy hand, and you have certainly gone through a great deal this last few months.

Please know that you are cared about, thought about, and worried about.

Mike
 
Keep expressing your anger and your despair, Obi. It's poisonous inside. Expressing it is cleansing. For me, there is nothing you can say that can drive me away from listening to you and caring about what happens to you. Ultimately, you are the only one who can actually do what it takes to heal yourself. I'm willing to walk with you through the process.

Sending you love and support.

Don
 
Obi,
I add my voice to the group of good men supporting you. I wish you all the best, and please know that we are here for you.
 
Very sorry you are going through this Obi. Is there a particular incident (or lack thereof) that triggered this?
 
keep hearing that i have friends here, that people here truly care about me and so on...

yet, the only time i hear anything is when i start a thread bitching, whining and complaining....

that is when people come out....

is it that hard to just say hello every once in a while?

is it that hard to see some of my other posts from days/weeks earlier, that are unresolved, to check in to see how i'm doing?

if i have friends here, people that care about me here, then why is it i'm the one that ALWAYS has to reach out? i thought friends, people who care about you, was a two way street.. that it was giving just as much as you receive... then why haven't i received the reach out? why is it only when i make threads like this one basically begging for some sort of validation?

i just feel used.... people just take what they want from me and don't give a crap about me, how i'm doing, how i'm feeling.
 
But I see that you are reaching out to others, offering your support and giving good advice. It's good to see you interacting positively with those that need your help. Thanks for doing that, even when you feel so down.
 
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