doctors an tests

doctors an tests
I'm so glad to hear this about anger. I just wish I could convince my loved one, the actual survivor, that anger unfocused is just a waste. It hurts people who aren't guilty, and also helps destroy us.
 
wow, this is the first time I thought about it in a long ass time. I've had a couple check ups, and physicals, but Once I did want to freak out some when I tried out for the military, and went for the physical.
That is exactly how I felt. I felt like my body was not mine there for a minute. I had done a good job of keeping that memory supressed, this thread definately pulled a trigger, but thankfully, there was no round in the chamber this time.
I think now that I know it is there, I'll keep that in mind so I won't get freaked out for any reason.
I pay so much for insurance, and whatever, I know darn well that I am my own when I go to a doctor. I want them to look me over completely, and I ask a lot of questions. If I could I'd go every year, and also do some more invasive tests that I currently can't afford.
At the military processing center though, I didn't pay for jack, and I was told what to do the whole time.
 
So what can be done about/with this kind of anger? Does it ever go away or is it an energy that just has to dissipate? I don't know what will happen, but with anger destroying my buddy, that has to be the first issue to be tackled, yes?
I certainly would appreciate any suggestions to be given, because without some help with such rage, my buddy will end up destroyed, which will be definitely bad for both of us.
 
anger can be bad ,but it can also keep us alive without it i would have just been ,you know ?the anger and rage told me i am still alive ,i may not feel much but i can still feel anger ,its better than feeling nothing at all.if you take away his anger there may not be anything left.
 
Trev,

i like being angry
it feels good
i like pissing
some ppl off. that
feels good to
but its mean
i especialy like
pissing sarah
off. but thats mean
to.
ok from now on
im tryin g not to
hurt the ppl
around me. not evn
sarah
ok?
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Sounds good, but I would just suggest looking at Sarah's relatioship with you. Do this sometime when you aren't already angry. I think you will see she is your closest friend and best ally right there where you live. You mean a lot to her. I know sometimes it will feel like she's getting into your space really bad, but look at the situation later, when you calm down. I think you will see that you aren't pissed off at Sarah herself so much as you are at the decision Sarah had to take or the situation that made her do that.

I can tell you that as a teenager myself I raged a million times against my parents for the unreasonable things they were doing. I thought they were against me and were just refusing to see my side. But guess what? When my son was a teenager he raged against me in the same way and for the same reasons. The easy way out for me would have been to say fuck it, let him go ahead and do what he wants, or let him get away with this. But because I loved him I had to do what I thought was best for him. I was convinced that if I let him do what he wanted, or if I let him get away with the problem between us, it would be very bad for him in the end. No, I wasn't always right, and yes, there were plenty of times I backed off because I thought hey, I don't need to win this one.

But when I stood my ground and took the flak it was because I loved him.

Much love,
Larry
 
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