Disregarding the Shame
In a recent sermon, my Pastor talked about Holy Week. He said that the betrayals, denials, injustices and humiliations came fast at Jesus leading up to Good Friday. In the sermon he quoted Hebrews 12:2 “Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame.”
The phrase “disregarding its shame” has stuck with me since he preached. I feel like there is something for me in that phrase as I continue to heal from my CSA. But I am not sure what. What would it look like to “disregard the shame” of the abuse?
I just don’t know how to get past the shame of what the teenager made me do when I was eight. I believe that Jesus came to earth, among other reasons, to model for us how to “do” life. So I think I am to learn from his example of disregarding the shame. But I don’t know how. My counselor has told me “Greg, the shame is real, it is just not yours”. I just don’t know how to let go of shame which isn’t mine.
The phrase “disregarding its shame” has stuck with me since he preached. I feel like there is something for me in that phrase as I continue to heal from my CSA. But I am not sure what. What would it look like to “disregard the shame” of the abuse?
I just don’t know how to get past the shame of what the teenager made me do when I was eight. I believe that Jesus came to earth, among other reasons, to model for us how to “do” life. So I think I am to learn from his example of disregarding the shame. But I don’t know how. My counselor has told me “Greg, the shame is real, it is just not yours”. I just don’t know how to let go of shame which isn’t mine.