As I was watching this movie, I was criticizing it and putting it down, as I always do with everything. But partway through, I realized that it was very good, surprisingly accurate psychologically, and was arousing all the feelings in me that I couldn't handle feelings. His adult contempt for self-pity, loveless life, anxiety about his safety with a security system, keeping the past in the past, being cruel to people, generally contemptuous attitude about everything. The little boy's enthusiasm and intensity of feeling for the full moon and airplanes were too much, embarassing, for me to think about myself feeling and expressing the way he did. So was the fact that he got beat up in school. I'm embarassed to admit that I was hit by other boys in school and did not fight back or win. And the way the boy's father blames him for killing his mother. That scene was too much for me, because my parents similarly blamed me for everything, including being the death of my father, so I think the guilt was too much.
Anyway, I bought the movie, but have since been unable to watch it again, because I'm scared of all the feelings and scenes I just mentioned.
Ryan
