Disconnected

[Tryingtolive]

I don't know why it happens
Or even how it happens.
That feeling of being empty.
No attachment to anything.
Just thoughts repeating.
Louder and louder they become.
Hatred and numbness.
Tightness and sweatiness.
Nervousness and panic.
No one to talk to to.
Alone.
Quit what I'm doing.
The disconnection is there.
What's on my mind I can not share.
Thoughts out of control
I never was.
Emptiness
Should I share?
Left myself out to bleed.
Iam In need.
The love I do not show.
Inner turmoil
Constantly
No one would expect it
I just accept it.
Nothing to repair
I want a way to fix it.
On my own
Disconnected