Disclosure - What is the point!
reality2k4
Registrant
May trigger.
The object here, is not to discourage disclosure, but the opposite.
It is meant to be only my own views, but it is vital to disclose at some point in your life.
It is one thing I learned, and even though it is tough through denial, it is well worth the struggle that ensues.
If only ste could write how he feels, but maybe this is why he meets denial in the world.
He can only write stuff from his heart.
Disclosure was a steep learning curve to me.
It left me as a hurt and wounded little boy.
It also left me with profound difficulties.
What really irks me is that he masks his hurt so good to ppl he meets, but why should he not!
When he shows ppl his hurt they either dismiss it, or they say OK, I got hurt too.
Is this hurt just like any other!
Maybe I overreact to my past and should "just get on with it."
Am I really overeacting to my hurt, or is this hurt really like no other hurt that others go through?
Ppl treat me as a kid, how could he ever not be.
This kid is strong though, he tells them of his hurt and they just dont get it!
Maybe I write my book and they will get it, but it will fly out of their mind as soon as it got there.
Unfortunately we live in a world that has little empathy for the hurt that goes on around them, they hate it happening, but they are powerless to intervene, or just turn a blind eye to it.
I have to validate myself in this world that is violent unsafe to my boy mind, believe me, his he is on his hackles now, so beware, you see him like you never did.
My life has shown me so many things, and I go with things that nature shows me and not what people tell me.
My well founded idea is this.
When we are abused we are left to somehow figure out a life that is parallel to others.
We knew nobody would listen to us, so we did not tell anybody our hurt.
Now as a man, nobody can validate my hurt, so he does not even talk about it.
If he does talk, then it is at least minimalised by all he talks to.
Maybe it is OK to just steal my childhood, and expect him to live a normal life in a world full of murderers etc.
I live in a world that does not listen to the little boy who is kicking and screaming inside me, they just say let it go.
The only person who listens is the one who really figures in my life. ME!
We need to educate society to listen to the ones who are hurt so young and need them to listen and care.
This is a basic instinct that we are born with, but sadly it is diminished through our own sick society that robs us of basic instincts.
Disclosure was my worst nightmare, it really was, and not totally unexpected in the modern world.
He is treated like a kid, he is largely invalidated.
He is just told to get on with it, and not have a need for anybody to help him.
WTF is new?
Is he too big to be hugged, or listened to.
I am pissed off living in a society that just doesnt "get it".
Pissed off with ppl who cannot validate his past, but I will carry the little boy, his voice will be heard, and now that he has disclosed, he will scream from the rooftops like a bird and tell the world how he feels.
I dont live in their world, nor them mine, but they have their choice on where they live.
It is a lot safer in my world, a place where they could never reach or be.
ste made his life out of nothing, so little means so much to him.
He is going to make the world listen if it is the last thing he ever does,
The object here, is not to discourage disclosure, but the opposite.
It is meant to be only my own views, but it is vital to disclose at some point in your life.
It is one thing I learned, and even though it is tough through denial, it is well worth the struggle that ensues.
If only ste could write how he feels, but maybe this is why he meets denial in the world.
He can only write stuff from his heart.
Disclosure was a steep learning curve to me.
It left me as a hurt and wounded little boy.
It also left me with profound difficulties.
What really irks me is that he masks his hurt so good to ppl he meets, but why should he not!
When he shows ppl his hurt they either dismiss it, or they say OK, I got hurt too.
Is this hurt just like any other!
Maybe I overreact to my past and should "just get on with it."
Am I really overeacting to my hurt, or is this hurt really like no other hurt that others go through?
Ppl treat me as a kid, how could he ever not be.
This kid is strong though, he tells them of his hurt and they just dont get it!
Maybe I write my book and they will get it, but it will fly out of their mind as soon as it got there.
Unfortunately we live in a world that has little empathy for the hurt that goes on around them, they hate it happening, but they are powerless to intervene, or just turn a blind eye to it.
I have to validate myself in this world that is violent unsafe to my boy mind, believe me, his he is on his hackles now, so beware, you see him like you never did.
My life has shown me so many things, and I go with things that nature shows me and not what people tell me.
My well founded idea is this.
When we are abused we are left to somehow figure out a life that is parallel to others.
We knew nobody would listen to us, so we did not tell anybody our hurt.
Now as a man, nobody can validate my hurt, so he does not even talk about it.
If he does talk, then it is at least minimalised by all he talks to.
Maybe it is OK to just steal my childhood, and expect him to live a normal life in a world full of murderers etc.
I live in a world that does not listen to the little boy who is kicking and screaming inside me, they just say let it go.
The only person who listens is the one who really figures in my life. ME!
We need to educate society to listen to the ones who are hurt so young and need them to listen and care.
This is a basic instinct that we are born with, but sadly it is diminished through our own sick society that robs us of basic instincts.
Disclosure was my worst nightmare, it really was, and not totally unexpected in the modern world.
He is treated like a kid, he is largely invalidated.
He is just told to get on with it, and not have a need for anybody to help him.
WTF is new?
Is he too big to be hugged, or listened to.
I am pissed off living in a society that just doesnt "get it".
Pissed off with ppl who cannot validate his past, but I will carry the little boy, his voice will be heard, and now that he has disclosed, he will scream from the rooftops like a bird and tell the world how he feels.
I dont live in their world, nor them mine, but they have their choice on where they live.
It is a lot safer in my world, a place where they could never reach or be.
ste made his life out of nothing, so little means so much to him.
He is going to make the world listen if it is the last thing he ever does,
