26, Institutional and Family abuse. Been to multiple therapists, trying to get better.
By reaching out here Edin you are not alone in this anymore. Thanks for sharing your story, that shows your strength and willingness to heal. As has been said above your courage is tremendous and none of this was your fault. I am glad you have reach out here for help, Lot of good people here to share with that understand where you have been as we have been through similar in our pasts.I'm alone, and as much as I don't want to be.
I have to be. Because no one is going to care about me as much as I will.
this was such a courageous post. You are a very brave young man to have survived all that you describe and still be remotely functional enough to compose your story.
I read your story above. In your own words. And I can objectively say: NONE of what happened to you was your fault. You didnt deserve abuse or neglect. Your family and other abusers were wrong to treat you with such disregard and malice. You come across as an everyday boy that was repetedly broken over and over by the ones who should have loved you.
I can’t thank you enough for sharing your story here and letting us see you. I am impressed by how much you have survived and I want you to know you are safe to begin healing and to express whatever you need to that you have kept locked down.
I hope you are able to experience real love on the journey ahead - love that does not cost you anything, including sexual favors. You’re worth it. You’re incredible.
Was when I was unable to work anymore that my past caught up to me. That changed my world forever. Too much time to think for sure I worked all the time so I never had time to think. Drank to pass out almost every night I was on shore. I worked long hours for most of my working life now I have an idea why I did, it wasn't all about money.After losing my job, had too much time to think.
Edin, I’m glad that you have been forced to slow down and let this out. Your original post is so full of anger and self hate that it had to be cathartic to pour some of it out here.Thank you Mick, sorry just been busy looking for work and trying to keep myself above water with everything that's going on.
I just don't see the benefit of keeping things bottled in. I was able to do so for a long time because I was too busy to be depressed.
Now after catching covid and losing my job, it seems that I have too much time to think about what's happened.