Different PTSD
My military rape and combat PTSD is so different from the CSA. Because I was older and remember everything. I have been in treatment specifically for those for the last three years. A lot of the treatment bleeds over, but there are stark differences. My T tells me it is because of my older age and really different experiences.
The worst part of this is suddenly getting scared and panicking when the flashbacks come. I am able to generally deal with many of the symptoms due to previous CSA therapy, but this is really different. Body memories are more intense. And combat panic comes back. When you are being under attack and panicked that it could be the end. That I feel like I can be killed.
More work. And not fun. At all.
The worst part of this is suddenly getting scared and panicking when the flashbacks come. I am able to generally deal with many of the symptoms due to previous CSA therapy, but this is really different. Body memories are more intense. And combat panic comes back. When you are being under attack and panicked that it could be the end. That I feel like I can be killed.
More work. And not fun. At all.