DID help
Okay. So I think I need to give up on my therapist just 'fixing' me with this, and that I need do more work on it myself. The last two, or three (what is time when you're disocciative? ha) weeks has been DID hell. My girlfriend says it is like someone with out of control channel changing syndrome. She is like 'for God's sake, just pick SOMEBODY and stay that person'. Which would be wonderful idea and advice if I have any control of it. I don't. Would like to, trust me. It is like, the times I am 'myself' I cling to me, trying to keep from being swept away again.
My therapist has been big help to me in many ways, but she told me right at beginning, when she first tested me for DID and realized it was the situation, that she is NOT specialized in it. She has consulted with another therapist with my consent, and is learning more of it to help me better. Always, I have been resistent to read or learn more about it (similar to the SA), because it seems it would make it more 'real'. Well, it is plenty 'real'. Now maybe if I learn more I can help myself.
I am going to 'google' in a few minutes, but I will ask here also, if anyone have any advice of good, trusted reasources on the subject? I would thank you very much, believe me.
Leosha
My therapist has been big help to me in many ways, but she told me right at beginning, when she first tested me for DID and realized it was the situation, that she is NOT specialized in it. She has consulted with another therapist with my consent, and is learning more of it to help me better. Always, I have been resistent to read or learn more about it (similar to the SA), because it seems it would make it more 'real'. Well, it is plenty 'real'. Now maybe if I learn more I can help myself.
I am going to 'google' in a few minutes, but I will ask here also, if anyone have any advice of good, trusted reasources on the subject? I would thank you very much, believe me.
Leosha