and yes I have a whole menagerie of alters (see my signature line)
Wow. Now I see what you're sharing,
@NC-Survivor, thank you. I'm impressed you've come to know your various selves so well.
I wasn't ready for the abuse memories to resurface recently, and I'm certainly not ready for a bunch of alters to join my life. Sure there has been the initial relief & comfort of finally knowing what is wrong with me for 40+ years. But beyond that, this is scary, as I know there is one more inside me that absorbed the worst of the pain & abuse, repeatedly, silently.
Was the idea of having whole parts of you locked away from other parts of you kinda scary at first? What else is there?
Alters was the stuff of movies, not my life, I never wanted to live this kind of life, I just wanted to have a normal life, like everyone else appeared to be having.