Depression with treatment
I didn't realize until today that I was so depressed about my treatment. And it has bled over into personal relationships. I am not myself. I am too on edge and take some things too literally when I shouldn't.
It feels like a weakness for me and I hate it. Because I am usually so strong.
Friends are telling me this is normal in my circumstances and I want to believe them. But it still feels the way it feels.
Monday I go back to chemo and I have thought about suicide rather than facing this. But I know that won't happen. But it is the first time in years I have thought about this.
I really suck at this!
It feels like a weakness for me and I hate it. Because I am usually so strong.
Friends are telling me this is normal in my circumstances and I want to believe them. But it still feels the way it feels.
Monday I go back to chemo and I have thought about suicide rather than facing this. But I know that won't happen. But it is the first time in years I have thought about this.
I really suck at this!