depressed---restless!!!

depressed---restless!!!
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fhorns

Registrant
Ever feel like the world isn't going fast enough?! I have been online the last two hours because I wasn't handling work at all, and now I'm frustrated!
I've been looking over art therapy, local organizations and therapists, but I've got no vehicle, barely enough money, slow replies here (since it's a work day), but damn, I want help. I want to reach out.

Another thing: Am I the only one who feels like I'm passive in the therapist's office? I'm wondering if that's been part of my stagnation in the recovery part. I don't want to feel like a victim any more; maybe that's why I thought art would be worth it. It's expressive, and not vocally. I know I can talk it out right. But there's nothing happening inside when I just "talk". I know the lingo.

Anyway, just feeling judged and condemned for taking the afternoon off----even though I'm still in the building. (I'm afraid they will think I can't do the job). Damn! I'm mad!

fhorns
 
Everyone deserves to take the afternoon off on occasion. Of course you can do the work.

Keep posting and get the shit all out.
 
It is tough sometimes at work, when you go and things remind you of other things you would rather not think of or wish were different. Life just sucks sometimes. And well meaning people just piss you off even more.

I find some comfort in my sick, twisted sense of humor. And since my job does not require much thought, I can do alot of thinking up goofy shit while working.
 
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