DEPRESION AND ANGER

DEPRESION AND ANGER
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OKIE MIKE

Registrant
It seams to me that I am eather depresed or angry most or the time . Sometimes both .
I wish that I could find an level spot in my life .
Lately I have begun to smoke Pot once in a while for my nerves . I know better . Because I
could wake up my monster .
My wife says that she does not have a husband
any more . Because when I get depresed (this happens a lot ) I go and isolate my self from the world . I am not much of a people person to start with .
My "T" says that iI have anger issues that I need to deal with . The only persom that I have hatred for is my Rapeist . I was reped in Setember of 1977 . This has men almost 29 years ago . and the anger is hot as it ever was .
But lately it seams that I anm on edge . I have ben short with my wife . and generaly iritable .
I finaly won a victory with the Veterans Adm
They have accepded that I was raped while in the Army . That only took about 5 Years . They sent me to see a theropist at the V.A. in Muscogee.
I have ben seeing a theropist there sense 2001
so I think that they should know my case my now .
I just feel like that my nerves are worn out and i cant take much more .
 
Mike,

I'm glad to hear you had a recent victory with the VA. Your anger is totally understandable. When the anger comes, I think it's important to have ways in which you can safely let it out without hurting yourself or anyone else. My T gave me a couple of exercises that allowed me to embrace my anger, so if you're interested, PM me.
 
Michael,

Maybe this is way off the wall, but it seems to me that you are talking about two very different things.

Depression is the way the body and mind react when they are so totally overloaded with stress and anxiety: they more or less collapse and seek alternative and unreal ways to cope. Depression is a physical disorder that can be treated with meds to restore the balance you have lost.

Anger is an emotion and for survivors it is a tool. It is a way for us to reject what was done to us, to reclaim our voice, to proclaim that what happened was wrong, and to affirm that none of it was our fault. It is a step in recovery, which (I think) depression never is.

Ask your T about this Mike. Ask him/her to help you focus. You want to recover; the VA now accepts that this is their responsibility. What next? Find your own way and your own pace and demand that your T respect your feelings. It is these feelings and what you do about them now that lie at the core to your recovery.

Much love,
Larry
 
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