Yes, indeed. When my clients don't know what to say, I tell them to just start talking.....just start. Words will begin to form themselves and then thoughts then sentences and it will begin to pour out. Not always - as you said Iaccus, some days it simply will not manifest itself no matter how hard you try. I will say here that it might help to do as TylerZ suggested - go somewhere and shout, yell, say what you need to say however it needs to be said. I would venture that your therapist most certainly should be, of all people, someone who would validate your pain and the grief/loss issues you have. I would suggest that if that individual does not, I would seek out one who does. I also understand that I don't know you well nor your situation with your T, so take what I've said with a huge grain of salt......you're not alone.....