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iaccus,

Mark it ***triggers** and let it rip. You don't have to be polite.
You don't have to post it here, send a private message to someone, any one, me...just don't sit on it.

I don't care if it's been said a billion fucking times, it needs to be said.
Let it rip and click send.
 
I agree with BDD.

I honor your pace, and what you need to do, is where you are. I have read a lot here and I think a lot of men are making adjustments, and pace varies. Just like I was told when I was greeted :D .

I know I still have a lot to say, and I've been looking at the possibility that ADD plays a role in the way my mind fills full, and it pours out. Maybe that's not ADD, I look at it because it's how I pour out that seems unfocused and random at times. There's been a stretch of late that my thoughts seem clearer, but my experience is that's transitory. I'll take this while it's here.

I appreciate everyone, and the genuine impact of sharing can be seen in these forums and chat. It's scary and wonderful. I'm so sorry we have to be here, but whom better to be with, than each other?
 
Yeah, I agree too, let it rip. Its funny because this is the first thread I open and I read Iaccus post. It resonates with me because I feel the same. Today I was told I live as a victim, I self pity, I was told that no one will acknowledge my pain, I guess this includes him for whom I been with for 24 years. I was attacked with 12 "you this, you that...you better stop etc" statements in three short text message. Now I am feeling numb.
 
Yes, indeed. When my clients don't know what to say, I tell them to just start talking.....just start. Words will begin to form themselves and then thoughts then sentences and it will begin to pour out. Not always - as you said Iaccus, some days it simply will not manifest itself no matter how hard you try. I will say here that it might help to do as TylerZ suggested - go somewhere and shout, yell, say what you need to say however it needs to be said. I would venture that your therapist most certainly should be, of all people, someone who would validate your pain and the grief/loss issues you have. I would suggest that if that individual does not, I would seek out one who does. I also understand that I don't know you well nor your situation with your T, so take what I've said with a huge grain of salt......you're not alone.....
 
iaccus,

I am sorry that you are in a dark place right now. Know that we all care about you and we want the best for you. I am here if you want to talk. Like BDD said, I don't care how you say what's bothering you, just get it out. I would be more than happy to listen. No judgement from me.

Many blessings,
Donald
 
I am sorry you are in that place. I too have been there. Sending peace to you.
 
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