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Tryingtolive
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My before was lonely on the inside and a slow loss of my ability to connect with others but all the while appearing normal on the outside. Always fearing my secret would be seen by anyone who got too close. I never felt normal or accepted most of my life. Before age 5 was pretty cool though.
My after was much of what you expressed. That's why I don't think the worst is over when the abuse stops.
Sorry for the pain. I wish you all the strength you need to not feel that way anymore.
My after was much of what you expressed. That's why I don't think the worst is over when the abuse stops.
Sorry for the pain. I wish you all the strength you need to not feel that way anymore.
Strive 38/11
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Do you want to resolve where you are stuck?
If it helps to know, you're not alone in your questioning. I'm kinda at the same place. Why do I feel like this because these memories came back? No one understands that. How can I hope that they will when I don't understand it myself?
I have found that talking about it helps. Which in and of itself is completely paradoxical because I don't want people to know. It's a comfort to be able to talk about it. I need the comfort to know and hear and feel accepted, cared for, loved, compassion. But at the same time don't want anyone's pity. Essentially, I don't want someone to like me because of this. I don't even know if that makes any sense.
I have found that talking about it helps. Which in and of itself is completely paradoxical because I don't want people to know. It's a comfort to be able to talk about it. I need the comfort to know and hear and feel accepted, cared for, loved, compassion. But at the same time don't want anyone's pity. Essentially, I don't want someone to like me because of this. I don't even know if that makes any sense.
