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Why do you go out of your way, Still, each and every time you can to stir chaos, probably knowing someone will say something about it, so you can attack that person too? Preferably in multiple forums in case the mods lock the thread? It's not healthy man. It's not helping anyone on this forum snd it's Definitely not going to help you.
Yes, I have this problem too. However, in my case it has to be a muscular man and often a black man. Although I experience mother-son incest, I do like looking at it which I don't think I should. I also like lesbian and bisexual porn.
My mom divorced my dad when I was only 4, but she really didn't want a son. So, she worked on feminizing me as well as sexualizing me which started at age 10 when I hit puberty. I think possibly mom's dressing me up at home in girls clothes with my bra stuffed so it looked real plus how she treated me over all open the door for my bisexual or gay interests.
Along with not feeling close with my dad, I never felt close with mom's second husband. She continued her extreme attachment to me and she did not want me to get to close to others and she never accepted my step-dad's kids one of which lived with us. My step-brother and I became close and in time that developed into including oral sex and taking showers together.
It was not until I was 30 that I really started dating for I finally met a girl that I didn't feel anxious around. She knows that I hit puberty at 10 and saw my first Playboy then as well as my mom often would just walk into my room to visit in her shear nightie with no bra. She also knows about the oral sex that my step-brother and I enjoyed. She does not know that I've talked with my therapist about wanting to be a girl sometimes and if I were that I would want very big breasts, plus I ordered some fake one's for me that my wife never saw and out of guilt and shame of wanting and getting them, I did not keep them very long.
All of this, I think gives her the ability to be ok with my buying us (really for me) a realistic vibrator that we enjoy together and I enjoy myself. Later on, I bought her a very nice dildo with a strap which we enjoyed on our anniversary. I told her that sucking that dildo was like being the girl my mom wanted me to be.
In time my wife has asked me if I wished she has a real male part since I like the vibrator and dildo so much when we are making love. I told her no, but on some level I would like to have said yes. My wife has said that I can enjoy all of the vibrators and dildos that I want but not the real thing.
However, I find myself wanting the real thing either one on one or in a bisexual or she-male experience.
My mother died 1 1/2 years ago and I've not had a normal experience of grief for we never had a normal relationship.
However, in his old age my dad and I have become closer which has been a very good thing. My step-dad and I are still not that close and I no longer have anything to do with my step-brother who lived with us.
I hope my reply has been helpful and as you can see, I need help too.
My mom divorced my dad when I was only 4, but she really didn't want a son. So, she worked on feminizing me as well as sexualizing me which started at age 10 when I hit puberty. I think possibly mom's dressing me up at home in girls clothes with my bra stuffed so it looked real plus how she treated me over all open the door for my bisexual or gay interests.
Along with not feeling close with my dad, I never felt close with mom's second husband. She continued her extreme attachment to me and she did not want me to get to close to others and she never accepted my step-dad's kids one of which lived with us. My step-brother and I became close and in time that developed into including oral sex and taking showers together.
It was not until I was 30 that I really started dating for I finally met a girl that I didn't feel anxious around. She knows that I hit puberty at 10 and saw my first Playboy then as well as my mom often would just walk into my room to visit in her shear nightie with no bra. She also knows about the oral sex that my step-brother and I enjoyed. She does not know that I've talked with my therapist about wanting to be a girl sometimes and if I were that I would want very big breasts, plus I ordered some fake one's for me that my wife never saw and out of guilt and shame of wanting and getting them, I did not keep them very long.
All of this, I think gives her the ability to be ok with my buying us (really for me) a realistic vibrator that we enjoy together and I enjoy myself. Later on, I bought her a very nice dildo with a strap which we enjoyed on our anniversary. I told her that sucking that dildo was like being the girl my mom wanted me to be.
In time my wife has asked me if I wished she has a real male part since I like the vibrator and dildo so much when we are making love. I told her no, but on some level I would like to have said yes. My wife has said that I can enjoy all of the vibrators and dildos that I want but not the real thing.
However, I find myself wanting the real thing either one on one or in a bisexual or she-male experience.
My mother died 1 1/2 years ago and I've not had a normal experience of grief for we never had a normal relationship.
However, in his old age my dad and I have become closer which has been a very good thing. My step-dad and I are still not that close and I no longer have anything to do with my step-brother who lived with us.
I hope my reply has been helpful and as you can see, I need help too.
