Dear Lost Brothers:

[James_dup1]

I wanted to write you and let you know that even though you may not be posting on the boards anymore or chatting in the chat room because you are no longer with us your souls are alive in the lives of those of us you touched. I miss so many of you so very much. The good times we shared, the tears we shared, the pain we shared. I want you to know that I will never forget you. I will carry you in my heart and my soul for this time and all time to come. I wish there was some way we could have helped ease your pain so you would still be with us. I wish I could make the people who gave you so much pain this was the only way you could free yourself from it see/understand/suffer just what they have done. I know I cant so for now dear Lost Brothers know this..I will never forget you.
Love Your Brother
James

 

[Sinking]

Amen!

 

[Leosha]

((((((Jay)))))))))

((((((James))))))))

((((((((Everyone in pain)))))))))))

James, you are truly a beautiful man.

Leosha

 

[crisispoint]

There are no words.


Scot

 

[crisispoint]

P.S. Ditto to what Leo said!

Always he is more eloquent than I.

Scot

 

[Ivanhoe]

Thank you, James, for starting this.

Thank you guys for adding to it.

Woz, you helped me to open up some really deep feelings. You said, "thank you," when I told you of that...but then you left without saying, "goodbye."

I will always remember the image that you described to me about you, as the little deaf boy, standing on the beach, feeling the waves in your chest, crash as you looked seaward, when you were five. You allowed me to explain to you that I was taking your hand and putting it on my chest as I placed my hand over your heart, while I told you that I loved you.

You were silent for the longest time that night on chat...then you simple said, "thank you." I remembered that I cried. It was such a simple scene, you at five and me an adult that you needed, telling you that you were loved.
You didn't tell this old man to back off. That night, you accepted my simple gesture and stole my heart.

And then, you went away.
Uuuuuu, I felt badly for the longest time. I thought that I had gone too far. I wrote of it here and I even dreamed of it and I even felt that I had contributed to you leaving.

Now, I'm left with the thought that we can open up some avenues for one another, some that remind us of the loss that we had at one time, or never experienced at all.

I will never forget your tenderness that night and hopefully, I won't forget mine with the other men, here.

If I were a praying man, Woz, I would pray for peace for you and your family, and your family, here; that we would all remember the importance of our words to one another, and that they would never be discouraging, but always a blessing.

Love,

David

 

[FlyWM]

James,
THis truly shows the beauty in you heart and spirit. It is terrible thast people take their lives, but at times it may seem like the only way, not too long ago I was at the point of ending it all, but I leared there is a reason to live. I hope the people who are considering it, please do not go through with it. It is a terrible way to end, and just lets our perps win for good.

scott