Dealing with Loss

[Obi]

having a difficult time dealing with the loss of gerard, aka starman77 here on ms.

he is the 8th person i've lost over the past 2 years that started with another fellow ms'er paul, aka pbert53.

i'm getting really tired of people passing away around me. especially my fellow survivor brothers that i care deeply for. i'm feeling like i'm losing that survivor brother lifeline. first paul, then gerard.

i care deeply for moose, and while he is in pretty good health, he is chronologically 76 years old. that worries me that he may not have much time life.

i care deeply for lapchinj, but his cutting scares me that i may lose him soon too...

i care deeply for traveler, but he's over in africa in an area that could be dangerous. i worry about that...

*shakes head*.....

i know this sounds selfish, but i feel like i'm losing all my survivor brothers that i can talk to on an more deeper level and i'm afraid i won't have that in my life anymore and i don't know what to do.

 

[SmartShadow]

Obi, I here that you are afraid of more loss on top of what I am shure is already too much. I am sorry you are going through so much. Hang in there.
I envi your ability to have such friendships it's a real gift with risk that I am trying to afford. I hope you find more who you can rely on. I know that your loss is real and can't be mitigated, but I hope you keep trying to reach out even to thowes who may not be here forever. I am not stable enugh to be part of anybody's suport network that is reliably but I am trying to become more stable. And slowly learning to trust. I hope you don't give up reaching out and finding new friends.
I supose we all do the best we can.
Take care Obi, I realy think it's going to be ok.

 

[Nothing Man]

Life can be brutal and loss is a part of life. How we handle losses shows our true character. You are a strong and caring person and I hope you know that as much as you care about others, many care about you too.

Mike

 

[Bluedogone]

Since I'm a little bit older than moose I can really understand your thoughts on this. I don't think it's a feeling of selfishness at all. Just a realization that anyone's passing is a very real part of life. And the fact that we just hate to give up that valuable part of our life called friendship. Good friends are so dear, and seem even more so when we share hardships and difficulties of CSA.

Unfortunately, a good many of my emails are news about the death of a classmate, relative or mutual friend. So there's no doubt it's hard to see them go.

But since you're so open, loving, caring, sharing and giving it's pretty obvious other survivor brothers will just naturally fill what now seems like an irreplaceable void.

 

[Obi]

Thanks, guys. Appreciate it.

visitation was last night and the funeral is today.

I am unable to go because I don't have the money to make the trip out there.

I am feeling really empty, sad and lost.

 

[Nothing Man]

(((Obi)))

I'm really sorry you're feeling so down.

 

[woodenshoes]

Obi

One day at a time. Only time can help heal a loss.

((((((obi)))))

Your brother from another mother.

Ws

 

[sorryson]

Obi I feel your pain. I have lost people in my life and like woodenshoes said only time can help heal a loss. I hope you find outlets to let you see living is pretty could and we cannot control the loss of someone we have come to trust, respect and rely upon.

I hope you begin to feel better

 

[Obi]

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[Dave PNW]

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