Day 2 from the beginning!

Day 2 from the beginning!

Naihtstar

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*On the next morning, it must have been very early, came he again to me it tilted me again cold water from above more over. Then it drew me somewhere. I could see still nothing and not talk and hardly move me. But it was was it all the same where I was much warmer now. I had to put on the soil and he freed my eyes and the mouth also. I did have fear however trusted me somewhat to say or ask or cry. Only he spoke. He said: if it untied me is I in showers immediately and me to wash, but I may not drink anything thereby. Then I am to tighten the white Roge in the corridor lie myself and again to him to come immediately. Is to place me before it and wait.
*Without something to say or regard I made him also. I had thirst however no I dared did not have too much fear. I made I could and as the warm water over me ran felt also again somewhat better I so fast. Then I placed good before him and waited myself. He said: kneels you. And I did it. He move me with a hand under the chin and looked themselves directly into the eyes. He said only: For you he waited. I did not know which it with it meant, not yet.
*He said and does not please laughs not it falls to me heavily enough it to write, kisses my feet. But I vibrated the head. He said makes it I says it not twice. I looked it on however before I something say could struck it me already in the face. I looked better no more high and did simply which he said, therefore I made it. He laughed only and said: You will fast learn. I felt so small, weak and I found it so common by him. What I to him did?
*I should stop and he got an amusing thing sometime. I should immediately experienced for which it was. It was a wood ball into my mouth came and a belt was drann around it to be bound completely firmly. I thought I get no more air and then might I move. I squatted like a dog there and none helped me now. I knew that and tried to be courageous. But it struck with a stick again and again and again on my backs and my legs and my feet. I cry however only completely quietly. I did not know why it dasm do. But I knew that it determine become worse if I do not make which it say.
*Only as I lose my control stopped it and instructed myself me over a table to put, like that that above my belly am. It did all pain however I crept to the table and made it. Then it struck again and again only this time in front on my belly and torso. I tried to cry however the thing in the mouth prevented me from it. Irgenwann as me bad and black before eyes was, heard it on against should I showering go and then into underwear forwards in kneel. Again I did it only went it this time many more slowly and I thought never survive I.
*When I back was, more hatter he eat himself posed on the table and I sahs there and waited. He said: Come drink something water and eat something fruit. I thought no what a luck it am again good. And I drank as much I could and stoppfte as much fruit into me purely as it only went. He laughed and looked at themselves, stroked my hair and said well. After it I got extreme stomach pain briefly and me became bad. I had to hand myself over, but since I would not away-be allowed and fear had whom he me which does if I which makes dirty, I handed me over into my hands and began again to cry. He became however not badly no he said goes you washing and comes then into the secondary room.
*Me was always still bad and I could hardly run, my feet did pain of the impacts no my whole body burned and then still belly pain. I went into the room and got a fright. There a small cage stood as for dogs and it said: purely there. I did not want however it pressed me it was uncomfortable there purely and I could any longer agitate itself. Then he locked this crate and decreased/went back into the other room. I white not like for a long time I there inside was however it seemed to me like many hours.

*That was the second day.... nearly the second day however I needs something break before I the remainder of this day to write can. I hope it understand that. And so unbelievably however that were only 2 days of nearly 7 years of my life sound.
 
Naihtstar,

This is a terrible thing that you had to experience. I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve this.

I'm glad you came here to tell your story. You are brave and strong to have survived so much.

That man is a terrible person.

Be gentle with yourself. Tell your story at your own pace. we are all here to listen.

Jim
 
It is remarkable, what you say at the end, of how what you have written about, it is only two days of this time period. There is so much that blends together, as things are done over time. Anything that you have written at all, it is 'enough', it alone never should have happened. But that there was so much more as well, that just makes it all the worse. I am glad you have found yourself here, and are able to express some of what happened, and are getting it out of yourself.

leosha
 
Thanks, yes the last Night was terribal i have to manny think and to manny cry but this are the Days. Chrismas time is ever badly for me why i`m here alone and yes the 1000 Memories in me.

But i think it must be that outher person see it read what was and that i speak over it.

Some special thinks i cant sai, ... i think it is to dangerously for me. You will understand it in some Days whan i have written more from this person and his frinds. I think than you understand why i can written somethink but not all.

many greetings your star
 
Naihtstar, I am deeply saddened by your experience of these days, Christmas is indeed not so far away. It should be a time of joy, not sadness, I hope you can find some joy this Christmas.

Writing down the pain is some release, but I know it can also be so painful.

Please be easy on yourself, look after you. Maybe you are too hurt by writing this. Take a break and keep yourself grounded,

take care,

ste
 
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