Daniel B.

[orodo]

So I still feel this way about my soon to be ex-wife...and I believe I always shall....

No matter what...

RE: daniel beddingfield, 'if your not the one'
If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

 

[The Dean]

Hi Marc,

I sure can understand the feelings in that song. Here again, this is suffering that neither you, nor your sons deserve.

As you get well and defeat all your "demons" she will see that her first love was her true love. There is a song to that effect from Starlight Express of ALWebber. The "Next Time You Fall in Love."

She is with a deceitful, amoral, uncaring man at this time. He had no concern for the sanctity of marriage, for what a break up would do to your family, nor for what it would do for you. It is hard to believe that a person like that will be an "answer to her prayers." More likely, a nightmare eventually.

No way a man does not love the mother of his children--at least in some way. I am happy to see that you can still acknowledge that.

Let me know if I can help.

I am having shoulder surgery Feb 6th--sure look forward to getting rid of pain.

Bob