CSA and what i believe it did to me
Tryingtolive
Registrant
I'm just gonna go into to detail about some things I face and I'm sure many of you understand and relate.
Physically tired
Anxious
Nervous
Tired
Irritable
I notice I Isolate when these 4 things are really bad given the day.
Relationship struggles
Not knowing what a healthy relationship is. Hard to keep or maintain a relationship
Healthy life choices
Not giving a damn about myself. Self care is very hard.
Concentration
Very good at acting like I'm in the moment when I'm just dwelling about so much of my life.mind is always somewhere else
Zoning out
Depending on the stress i put on my self I sometimes notice I zone out.
I feel worthless most days
Not really feeling like my life has a purpose.
I struggle with being social makes me feel even worse about myself.
The inner critic I listen to. Not many others
I avoid Eye contact with people
I Make things awkward sometimes
Loneliness
I've been feeling this for a very long time.
Craving friendship
Love
Affection
Care free
I care too much of what others think of me.
Always feel like they're doing something behind my back
Feel on edge even with people I know or people that care about me.
Anger most of the time cause I can't just be happy or always frustrated that I can't be social.
Feeling like I've caused much of my pain.
Feeling very Mis understood most of the time.
Feeling like I have no control over my life.
Don't like doing what others tell me to do.
Believe and tell myself I'm not a good person.
Issues with my sex life.
Very easy to just ignore people or just brush people off.
Not very open with others.
Uncomfortable around others especially men.
Add to this list if you'd like.
I'm sure there's many I'm leaving out
Physically tired
Anxious
Nervous
Tired
Irritable
I notice I Isolate when these 4 things are really bad given the day.
Relationship struggles
Not knowing what a healthy relationship is. Hard to keep or maintain a relationship
Healthy life choices
Not giving a damn about myself. Self care is very hard.
Concentration
Very good at acting like I'm in the moment when I'm just dwelling about so much of my life.mind is always somewhere else
Zoning out
Depending on the stress i put on my self I sometimes notice I zone out.
I feel worthless most days
Not really feeling like my life has a purpose.
I struggle with being social makes me feel even worse about myself.
The inner critic I listen to. Not many others
I avoid Eye contact with people
I Make things awkward sometimes
Loneliness
I've been feeling this for a very long time.
Craving friendship
Love
Affection
Care free
I care too much of what others think of me.
Always feel like they're doing something behind my back
Feel on edge even with people I know or people that care about me.
Anger most of the time cause I can't just be happy or always frustrated that I can't be social.
Feeling like I've caused much of my pain.
Feeling very Mis understood most of the time.
Feeling like I have no control over my life.
Don't like doing what others tell me to do.
Believe and tell myself I'm not a good person.
Issues with my sex life.
Very easy to just ignore people or just brush people off.
Not very open with others.
Uncomfortable around others especially men.
Add to this list if you'd like.
I'm sure there's many I'm leaving out
