Cross Dressing **** TRIGGERS ****
This is a very embarrassing thing to bring up...
It is a relief to put all of this into a sensible framework though as we all know, carrying the residue of early trauma is no fun at all. What I now know and understand, means I can't go to any of those places any longer. I know these behaviors are rooted in abuse and I don't want to perpetuate that experience.
I know I want to be gentle with myself. I've demeaned myself long enough.
What I'm coming to realize is that each facet of the worlds I touch is rooted in dis-ease whose source is seldom explored or understood...Spending time online with men who crossdress I really had no interest in joining them in celebrating their world of illusion.
I've seen your avatar on the board and thought perhaps there was something there of note.