Crazy
I feel like I'm going crazy. I wish I could get these thoughts out of my head or not remember them. I felt pretty good after I shared my story, but now I feel alone again.
I did tell more of my story to my wife and she cried with me. My sex life seems to be going from great to crap. Now when I have sex with my wife I feel like something is going to come behind me and attack me. Then I can't even finish. I feel less of a man, because I can't complete my manly duties for my wife. My wife ask me what is wrong? I tell her I don't know. I have cried myself to sleep the last couple of nights and feel hopeless.
I keep having thoughts of suicide, but I know that is not the answer. I don't know why the plans I made in the past keep coming back and I keep trying to improve them. My appointment to see a therapist is in two weeks. I just pray I don't go off the deep end before that.
I did tell more of my story to my wife and she cried with me. My sex life seems to be going from great to crap. Now when I have sex with my wife I feel like something is going to come behind me and attack me. Then I can't even finish. I feel less of a man, because I can't complete my manly duties for my wife. My wife ask me what is wrong? I tell her I don't know. I have cried myself to sleep the last couple of nights and feel hopeless.
I keep having thoughts of suicide, but I know that is not the answer. I don't know why the plans I made in the past keep coming back and I keep trying to improve them. My appointment to see a therapist is in two weeks. I just pray I don't go off the deep end before that.