Confusion

Confusion
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ccc246

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I am 22 years old and have had recent sexual disfunctions with my girlfriend. In retrospect, I've always been uncomfortable when I'm close to somebody. The root of this, I believe, was when I was about 7 or 8. I was babysat by a convicted child molestor. Whenever I stayed with him, he would put pink bows in my hair and make me pay with naked action figures. I don't think he ever sexually abused me, which leads me to beleive that he didn't, however I'm not sure. Moreover, I'm unable to share in activites that a man and woman normally are able to do. First of all, what does anybody make of this and finally, what can do?

Sincerley,

Confused
 
He was abusive to you at an age when you could not understand the fullness of what he was asking you to do and in a relationship in which he had authority over you.

You may wonder if more happened, and I can't answer that. What I can tell you is that this behavior was enough to confuse you at the very least. If you see a connection between this and problems you are having now, then that connection is worth exploring.

Please don't think that more needed to have happen in order for you to consider it abuse.

I wish you well on this journey you're entering.


"I don't think he ever sexually abused me, which leads me to beleive that he didn't, however I'm not sure."


Whenever I stayed with him, he would put pink bows in my hair and make me pay with naked action figures.
 
Ccc246,

Welcome to MS, reading what you wrote I feel what happened to you, as a boy sounds very abusive frightening and confusing. Apart from what he actually did, the atmosphere must have been heavy with his sick agenda and any kid would pick up on that. I expect that you are probably right in the connection you make with this and your present problems. All I can suggest is that you think about maybe seeing a therapist who has some expertise in dealing with this stuff, it may also be useful to stick around here and read some of the posts and see how much of it fits for you.

Take care,

Rustam.
 
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