confused

i'm a 34 year old boy trapped in a man's body. the abuse began when i think i was 11 and continued to around 15. i don't know for sure. it was by an older brother and he did the same thing to one of my sisters. right now i'm married and have 2 sons and i'm trying to make sense of everything. i don't know if i'm gay or straight. all of my choices in life seemed to have been dictated to me by my family. i'm tired. i need to find me. i know i'm worthy of being loved but that means that i have to trust-i can't do that. i feel alone. i read these other stories and i cry inside. i understand the pain, agony and loss of self. i need to talk to other men who know what i'm going through. maybe we can get through this nightmare.

 

[michael Joseph]

Email me I am willing to talk, I have some extra time right now anyway. [email protected]

I know it gets hard to deal with, I have been there over and over again. I am going through up and downs. Take care.

 

I've just stumbled onto this site. Charguyus, I understand your quandry. I am in EXACTLY the same situation. I too am married (13 years now) with a daughter, and question my "identity/orientation" (how's that for pollitically correct). I'd really like to chat with you sometime; if you want, drop me an email.

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[michaelb]

Saw your posting...it sounds like we are experiencing many of the same thoughts and feelings as you....I left you an e-mail before but did not hear back from you....please e-mail me so we can talk.....I hope I can help you and I hope you can help me.....my name is Michael Downing....my e-mail is [email protected] to hear from you soon.....michael