CHRISTMAS TIME

[OKIE MIKE]

Christmas time for me is a hard time of the year . I have lived away from my famlie for several years . They are scatered to the 4 winds
and I live in Oklahoma even though the famlie started in California .they are in Pennsylvania ,
Oregon , Oklahoma & California .
I seam to have extream depresion at this time of year . I was raped at the age of 18 when I was serving in the Army ,this has caused a great deal of problems in my life . I have ben maried 3 times and I wonder how my preasent wife puts up with me . I can be in a room of people and I just want to get away . I guess that I have become a loner over the years . I dont leave my home much unless I have to . The only thing that makes me happy is my hobby of colecting license plates (number plates for you people that live outside of the USA )I recieved a 1959 Tennesee plate in the mail today .
I have to go to my wife's sister's house tommorow for Christmas dinner I wish that I could just stay home .

 

[WalkingSouth]

Michael,

I'm sorry you had to experience that horrible time in your life. Thankfully I've not experienced that, so I can't say I understand, but I guess if anyone can come close to understanding it is one of us how have been abused as a child.

I know many of the guys here were raped at a much younger age than you, which should not detract from your trauma at all. We all have had our own experience and it was all traumatic and damaging to our self worth, and has caused seeming endless emotional pain.

I long for the day when this will all be only a distant memory and things like what happened to us will no longer be happening at all.

I will be thinking of you during this holiday, and sending good thoughts your way.

Lots of love,

John