Christmas Eve

[Blue__Bird]

I'm not used to celebrating Christmas. Back home all the hype is around New Year's Eve. However this year I'm staying at this place where Christmas is really big, so I decided to attend this silly Christmas do. Again all the nonsense, endless chatter was too much for me. Food was just nothing I could eat. And to make it worse, a really strange girl started flirting hard so I decided it was my time to leave.

I started walking around town randomly and found this homeless old man. I've seen him before while walking about and we had crossed looks but nothing,else. I'm easily recognized here anyway I guess because I don't look like the average person. So, last night when I walked past him he said something to me. I don't speak the language so I had no idea what 'he said, but he sounded weird... Sad or even sorry for me.

There's a Subway restaurant across the street so I went for two turkey subs. When I offered him one he invited me to sit. I thought, why not? I'd never done anything this crazy but just thought, wth. So I had my sub with the homeless dude, while he talked in that strange language and laughed a lot. Finally we shook hands, he said 'thank you' like three times and I left.

I feel so horrible now. I'm such a waste of a person, always feeling miserable and sorry for myself. Never happy or complete. Everything is always too much for me. That man is so much happier than I am, he was open to me and offered me his company when I didn't even want to be with myself. I'm honestly feeling terrible

 

[Nothing Man]

Bluebird, you should not feel terrible at all. You performed a great kindness to that man and I have no doubt that it meant a lot to him. Imagine him cold and alone on the streets on Christmas Eve and a stranger, who probably seemed like an angel to him, brought him a meal and shared it with him. That is the very definition of kindness.

 

[woodenshoes]

Blue_bird

Nothing man is right. That is a caring act of kindness.

Ws

 

[Blue__Bird]

Thank you, Nothing man and wooden shoes. I still feel terrible, think I'm hitting depression again. May be the holidays, right?

 

[LinEar]

Depression can definitely hit hard around the holidays. But Blue_bird, in spite of it, you did a wonderful thing. Keep it up.