Choking

Is this a living flashback?

I'm in between periods of chocking. It feels like I am choking on him. I keep tasting the aftermath. And I choke again. Oh god, it's bad.

I can;t stop this. I am trying to ground. Digging my nails in my palms. Petting and feeling my cat's solidness. But it keeps coming back.

 

[Archnut]

I dont know why this happens, when I get tense my mouth goes dry and I can physically feel that my thorat is closing, I then start to panic which makes things worse.

I have read somewhere that this can be used as a diagnostic for CSA, I picked it up from somewhere. I'm sure its learnt behavior but from where?

In the past It has triggered in me a couple of hyperventerlating episodes, they too are also very scary.

Its a bloody frigtening experience I know that. Its nearly as bad as acute alcohol withdrawls where I experienced three nights of withdrawl fits and would stop breathing, my wife had to stay awake for those same three nights.

I dont know if that helps. Im pretty sure its a natuaral reaction to what we all have been through.

Archnut
"And all that was left was hope"

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[crisispoint]

even though you're through this, boy csan i relate now, except it isn't physical, it's emotional.

sucks. always will suck, but we'll get through it, won't we.

damn straight.

peace and love,

scot

 

[yesac76]

Marc,
I am sorry you are going through this crap! I know you can make it through,, just hang in there!
Casey

 

[outis]

Marc,

I hope the worst of that flashback is over now. They are so real it's like having to live through abuse all over again.

I hope you feel better by now.

Joe