Childlike behaviors...

Childlike behaviors...
about clothes...I work for a bank, so i have to wear a suit coat. And when I put it on, I feel like I am putting on my armor for the battles of the day. No shit. Nobody can hurt me in my white shirt, my tie and my suit. I am dressed for battle. And no matter how mad someone gets that I turned them down for a loan, or have counter-offered the terms of the loan request with some weird restrictive conditions...it doesn't hurt me. Slides right off. CLOTHES CAN BE ARMOR.

pEACE

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another habit that goes back to the crib along with thumbsucking is rolling my pillow case into a hard wad.

I had dug a hole in my crib mattress and wadded the cotton stuffing into a ball and held it under my nose while I sucked my thumb.

I now do the same thing with the wadded pillow case. The pillow case gets so tightly wadded that it becomes a hard ball so tight that it permanently wrinkles the case even after going through a wash.

I have vague memories of my parents fighting and yelling at each other at that time( when I rolled the cotton into a ball)
 
outis I hear you valiantly protecting the little boy in you, even on an unconcious level. I have a lot of respect for that. ----- br gentle with yourself
 
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