Child abuse prolonged into adult years
Wolfg
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My name is Wolfgang. I am a UK resident. I am a survivor of childhood sadistic sexual abuse starting at a very early age, and carrying on into teenage and adult years. The abuse created a dissociative identity phenomenon which meant that a part of me – which always remained that 2to13-year-old – would comply with unwanted sexual acts while the rest of me knew nothing about it afterwards. The phenomenon was created by the abusers deliberately in order to make the ongoing abuse possible. The phenomenon represents a specific form of dissociative identity disorder (DID) as my alter only existed in situations of sexual abuse. Allow me to share my story!
I may add that what I am describing here is widely known as a custom around the globe which will be named "idiotabuse" Ever since the 15th of September 2020 the UN are "making" idiotabuse a crime against humankind supported by an ongoing Den Haag process (my case). Meanwhile a number of arrests have taken place, mostly in the UK and the US, eg. including a Thai princess (edit Oct 2022). What I am doing here - above & below - is putting this custom (usually veiled by silence and impunity) into well known terminology associated as well otherwise with sexual violence.
My alter was created during a series of violent gang rapes. The first rapes I have clear
memories of took place somewhere around 2. The scenes were so overwhelming that I had to dissociate them. From that point on, it became possible to trigger my dissociated alter and his
compliance with unwanted sexual acts by simply re-staging certain key elements of
the original scenes. Thus, the ongoing DID precisely represented a forced repetition
of repressed trauma.
During those gang rapes I was beaten, whipped, raped, pet-played, forced to masturbate,
forced to perform oral sex, shitted and pissed on & other typical sadistic stuff; like having to
say exactly what they want me to say "you are my queen" whatever, "Yes, I want it", "Please
more!", and so on. All non-consensual.
Over the years, I attracted numerous abusive people who knew how to trigger my
dissociative identity phenomenon and even stalked me for it. As an adult I simply repeated
my childhood trauma in a dissociated state when my childhood trauma was staged. I was
totally broken by childhood sadistic sexual abuse. I didn't know about it. I ended up being
constantly surrounded by people who exploited my trauma.
My childhood trauma had been staged by some teachers, priests, etc. Eventually, I was abused on
stages in clubs, & in other public & semi-public places. I was sex-trafficked to celebs, royals,
and other people of public life. First time, I had been sex trafficked was in my native Austria
starting at around age 5; later in Germany, Thailand, & the UK.
Upon "seeing" my original trauma, the dissociation phenomenon started to disappear.
I may add that what I am describing here is widely known as a custom around the globe which will be named "idiotabuse" Ever since the 15th of September 2020 the UN are "making" idiotabuse a crime against humankind supported by an ongoing Den Haag process (my case). Meanwhile a number of arrests have taken place, mostly in the UK and the US, eg. including a Thai princess (edit Oct 2022). What I am doing here - above & below - is putting this custom (usually veiled by silence and impunity) into well known terminology associated as well otherwise with sexual violence.
My alter was created during a series of violent gang rapes. The first rapes I have clear
memories of took place somewhere around 2. The scenes were so overwhelming that I had to dissociate them. From that point on, it became possible to trigger my dissociated alter and his
compliance with unwanted sexual acts by simply re-staging certain key elements of
the original scenes. Thus, the ongoing DID precisely represented a forced repetition
of repressed trauma.
During those gang rapes I was beaten, whipped, raped, pet-played, forced to masturbate,
forced to perform oral sex, shitted and pissed on & other typical sadistic stuff; like having to
say exactly what they want me to say "you are my queen" whatever, "Yes, I want it", "Please
more!", and so on. All non-consensual.
Over the years, I attracted numerous abusive people who knew how to trigger my
dissociative identity phenomenon and even stalked me for it. As an adult I simply repeated
my childhood trauma in a dissociated state when my childhood trauma was staged. I was
totally broken by childhood sadistic sexual abuse. I didn't know about it. I ended up being
constantly surrounded by people who exploited my trauma.
My childhood trauma had been staged by some teachers, priests, etc. Eventually, I was abused on
stages in clubs, & in other public & semi-public places. I was sex-trafficked to celebs, royals,
and other people of public life. First time, I had been sex trafficked was in my native Austria
starting at around age 5; later in Germany, Thailand, & the UK.
Upon "seeing" my original trauma, the dissociation phenomenon started to disappear.
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