Burdened
My secret
Mine to live with
What I do with it
This subject everyone despises
Even myself
Looking
Searching
Answers no where to be found
Finding ways to cope
Still just barely surviving
Not living
Saddened
Angry
Anxious
Humiliated
All things I feel daily
Self care
Self love
Is Hard to do
For some it's easy
Keeping my cool
The rage
It builds
Until I'm numb
That's when I'm at peace
Shutting off
Running from my fears
Tired of facing them
Only to realize they keep taunting me
The inner demons
There winning there battle
Only having Hope
But also fearful
I might be battling a battle I'm destined to loose
Having Faith
But don't know where to put my trust in
So many things we face
Looking in the mirror
Questioning
My views
How I see the world
How I see others
My mind
It races
Never shutting off
Wishing there was a switch
Wishing I could wake up tomorrow start new
It's not that easy
This secret it keeps me chained
Burdened I feel
The lonely nights
They eat at me
Wishing for peace
This cycle
Self loathing
Now
How much I've tried
How I was so wrong about this
No one leading me
No one to run to
Just me
Fighting alone
Needing help
Others at my side
But they just don't understand
The pain
I keep hidden
I've shown too much weakness
The havoc I've caused
I'm burdened I must admit
I continue this war with myself
The inner critic I listen too
Cause not many people want to face the truth
Mine to live with
What I do with it
This subject everyone despises
Even myself
Looking
Searching
Answers no where to be found
Finding ways to cope
Still just barely surviving
Not living
Saddened
Angry
Anxious
Humiliated
All things I feel daily
Self care
Self love
Is Hard to do
For some it's easy
Keeping my cool
The rage
It builds
Until I'm numb
That's when I'm at peace
Shutting off
Running from my fears
Tired of facing them
Only to realize they keep taunting me
The inner demons
There winning there battle
Only having Hope
But also fearful
I might be battling a battle I'm destined to loose
Having Faith
But don't know where to put my trust in
So many things we face
Looking in the mirror
Questioning
My views
How I see the world
How I see others
My mind
It races
Never shutting off
Wishing there was a switch
Wishing I could wake up tomorrow start new
It's not that easy
This secret it keeps me chained
Burdened I feel
The lonely nights
They eat at me
Wishing for peace
This cycle
Self loathing
Now
How much I've tried
How I was so wrong about this
No one leading me
No one to run to
Just me
Fighting alone
Needing help
Others at my side
But they just don't understand
The pain
I keep hidden
I've shown too much weakness
The havoc I've caused
I'm burdened I must admit
I continue this war with myself
The inner critic I listen too
Cause not many people want to face the truth
