brothers

[theo]

i wanted to take a little time to thank each and every one here. the last two weeks have been pure hell and last night i was not sure i was going to make it. i was nearly at the same point last night i was at three years ago when i was going to take that final step. the pain was just too much to bear back then, and the pain last night was something else all its own. i have felt very uncomfortable with language such as "love" or "brother". those words mean a great deal to me and i use them so very sparingly. i have lived 35 years and there are only two men i have considered worthy of being my brothers, till now that is. i cannot explain the difference, but i believe everyone here understands. when i read the responses to my posts of anguish i could not understand the feelings of warmth and compassion that i experienced. we have all been brainwashed into thinking that expressing pain is a weakness in a male, and the shame we carry is added on to that. the love and empathy i have personally experienced here and that i have witnessed in other posts is ...write this day and time down, guys because i am actually speechless .

i am not sure if i am calmer or just numb, but i am more stable right now. i cannot express my gratitude for the overwhelming support and validation i have received here, but i know each of you understand...my brothers.

 

[Mike Church]

Theo: You are part of us now and will never be alone again no matter where life takes you. A part of each and every one of us lies in us all.

 

[Stephen_5]

Theo,

We all speak a common language here. We all get it. We know how it is. We're survivors. We're here for each other. Sometimes we listen, sometime we talk, always we learn.

Take good care of yourself,

Steve

 

[Leosha]

There is no need to thank I think Theo. I could answer every post by every person ever at this site, and still I will get more back of this place then ever I can give. You are welcome, of course, but I do not think it necessary.

leosha