breaking free
I feel like I'm really growing these days. Something has broken open in me, and I'm feeling the restrictions the abuse placed on me in a very new way. Irritation rather than anger or any of the other whiny ways I would have seen them a few months or years ago.
It's as though another self was walking in my flesh and trying to act and then seeing that it isn't as flexible as it thought it was. That self gets really annoyed at the silly waste it sees. Then sometimes it just brushes all the garbage away, like a hand brushing a cobweb, and then it just moves forward with a purpose and no debate, and I see how simple the choices can really be...ought to be. Basically it's like flipping a switch, only when the light comes on, it's life.
I have this habit of second guessing myself...you know, I ask "should I do this?" Then my inner critic (myself) comes out and starts pulling the idea down...Nowadays another self often crushes the debate, sounding like a Nike commercial "Just do it!" Then I find myself propelled forward into a new adventure, a little scared as I go out the door, but so RELIEVED. A truly unbelievable relief, like being let out of a cage.
Life can be really beautiful! All we need to do is break open the cage.... Then we can open the door and walk out into the sun!
Danny
It's as though another self was walking in my flesh and trying to act and then seeing that it isn't as flexible as it thought it was. That self gets really annoyed at the silly waste it sees. Then sometimes it just brushes all the garbage away, like a hand brushing a cobweb, and then it just moves forward with a purpose and no debate, and I see how simple the choices can really be...ought to be. Basically it's like flipping a switch, only when the light comes on, it's life.
I have this habit of second guessing myself...you know, I ask "should I do this?" Then my inner critic (myself) comes out and starts pulling the idea down...Nowadays another self often crushes the debate, sounding like a Nike commercial "Just do it!" Then I find myself propelled forward into a new adventure, a little scared as I go out the door, but so RELIEVED. A truly unbelievable relief, like being let out of a cage.
Life can be really beautiful! All we need to do is break open the cage.... Then we can open the door and walk out into the sun!
Danny