Boy found dead in park

[cant_remember]

Hey everybody,

Been a while since I posted, but this has me triggered big-time and needed a place to share and vent.

This has happened very close to me:

12-year-old white boy found dead in a local park. His homeless mother checked him out of school at 1:00, 3 hours later he was dead, but wasn't reported missing for another 5 or 6 hours after that.

https://www.courier-journal.com/story/news/crime/2014/10/01/boy-found-park-identified-case-ruled-homicide/16540051/

So, so triggered. All I can think about is that could have been me. Even though I still don't have a clear narrative memory of my abuse, I know that I was existentially afraid, that I feared that he would kill me, could kill me, that I submitted to the abuse and returned on fear of death.

Several people in the community are openly speculating that he was a "child prostitute," and I almost lose my mind at the term. A child CANNOT prostitute himself. The term is "sex traffic victim."

Back to self-medicating and watching baseball.

Cant

 

[KMCINVA]

Sorry to hear this sad story and the impact it is having on you. One can never predict what will trigger, remind us of the abuse. I can only imagine the emotions it conjures up for you.

Self medicating is a coping mechanism and we all have them. However, most we develop as a result of the abuse are more harmful than good but they allowed us to survive. Have you explored with your T or doctor other possible coping mechanisms to help you with your triggers? Once you find a more healthy mechanism(s), at least for me, I found the triggers not to be as overwhelming and I was able to keep in control. It took much time and work. I had to make changes, or changes were made for me, in my life that proved healthy. I hope this event does not set you back.

Cant, remember you can!!!

Kevin

 

[cant_remember]

I took 25 mg of Naltrexone this AM instead of my usual self-medication with marijuana, hoping for a better result.

Thanks, Kevin. Good to see you again.

Cant

 

[just me]

Suspect charged in murder:
https://www.courier-journal.com/story/news/crime/2014/10/02/arrest-made-cherokee-park-killing/16582115/

 

[cant_remember]

The crazy thing here is that this suspect, Joseph Cambron, was acquitted by jury trial on sex abuse charges just a few months ago.

Part of the reason he was found not guilty could have been because of apparent rampant prosecutorial misconduct that biased the jury against the case.

This guy should have already been behind bars, and instead he killed this kid.

https://www.wdrb.com/story/26692390/family-of-joseph-cambron-he-gets-very-aggressive-very-quickly

 

[pufferfish]

As a 12-year-old boy undergoing terrible abuse, I formed the impression that he was a killer. I didn't think I would escape alive. As per my story in pufferfish story part 5, I had a near-death experience on Thursday before my release on Saturday. What is meant by "near-death-experience"? I was convinced that he killed me. Now, what does that mean?... I went into blackness where the pain stopped and there was light all around. Then I came back....

One weird thing I've since pieced out: I was given LSD the last evening of my captivity. Where would the abuser have gotten LSD to use the last night of a boys camp in 1951?

I remembered these things 30+ years later in what is known as an "abreaction". An abreaction is when you remember something like that with such detail that it's like a 3-D movie with sound. You see the faces, hear the words, feel the feelings. I was immediately convinced that my abuser must have been a killer.

I searched the archives of the Washington Post to see if any dead boys had shown up, especially if they were killed by drowing. He had told me that I would show up as a drowning victim. I found several cases of boys having been found dead in that area.

The first document I found happened only a few weeks before the abuse I reported in pufferfish story number 5. A small boy about age 6 was found dead in a military-type blue duffel bag on March 7, 1951. It was near Richmond, VA, at the side of a Goochland County road. Police decided the boy had been killed elsewhere and was brought to the scene. He had 2 cuts and numerous bruises on his head. He was wearing dungaree pants and a pullover shirt with wine and blue stripes, and he had a plaid jacket. He had socks but no shoes.

In a separate article in the Washington Post, it said the boy in the previous paragraph fit the description of a boy, Danny Matson, who had vanished from Chickopee Massachusetts on Feb. 17. The parents had left him alone in the yard while they went to lunch.

About a year later, March 13, 1952, another dead boy was pulled from the Chesapeake and Ohio Canal near Washington DC. He was Ronald Lee, 15, who had been reported missing on Feb. 2. His home was in the area.

(Pufferfish has several more articles on this subject to add, but he's run out of time for right now).

 

[unhappycamper]

puffer:

Maybe the drug wasn't LSD. There are other similar hallucinogens, some of them occurring naturally in fungus and plants. That's no comfort, of course, but might make the experience a few tenths of a percent easier to live with.

And BTW, I went to that same blackness with light all around, and the pain somewhere above.

Peace!

John

 

[BraveFalcon]

Several people in the community are openly speculating that he was a "child prostitute," and I almost lose my mind at the term. A child CANNOT prostitute himself. The term is "sex traffic victim."

I completely agree. The sad thing is that children caught up in this terrible industry often face prosecution for prostitution. How fucked up is that? How can we simultaneously say that a child can not consent and hold him or her criminally responsible for the very same act? How can we tell an abused child, "it's not your fault" then say... "you have the right to remain silent" etc? It's insane, but it's true. Underage "prostitutes" are arrested, charged, and prosecuted all the time. How fucked up is our justice system if/when this is going on?

Back to the story, apparently there is no evidence that the boy was an underage "prostitute" or that he had even been sexually abused. At the end of the day, I suppose that doesn't do anything to lessen or magnify the tragedy either way. The terrible fact is that a child was murdered. End of story. I can only hope that the monster who perpetrated the act gets what's coming to him, sexual predator or not.

Back to self-medicating and watching baseball.

Self-medicating and watching baseball? Sounds like a decent way to spend an evening. I'm all about both of those activities.

Ken