blind spots and clinging

[markgreyblue]

therapy has encouraged me to become more and more conscious of the activity in my mind - this in turn will help me "work and love (have relationships)" which is the aim of my treatment -my growing curve has been to get to know who I am to be able to work and love -

things that I want to do have often been negated by me - the anxiety the predictions of failure and then the despairing -
my blind spot has been knowing myself - until now -
that this creativity of my mind has been searching out something to cling to in light of the future - to predict so that I would have something to worry about - to cling to -but in truth I have not been able to achieve what I have wanted to - I have had the luxury of being able to organically grow into this realization.

I am not afraid of this choice now that I want to make - because I see now what my mind is doing to prevent me from working and loving -

if I am unclear - let's talk about it -
pm me anytime -

does this make sense guys?

 

Mark,

Though I had to read this twice, it makes sense to me. I came to that same realization a long time ago, but what has stopped me is not knowing how to stop "it".

That's why this wackjob is in therapy!

Marc

 

[Leosha]

I'm going to quickly address something I did understand in your post...I'm sorry to not be more clear on the rest of it, it's almost 2:30 am and my mind isn't in the best place right now anyway.

In regards to blind spots. If I am understanding it right, how you say it, I think everyone has blind spots of themselves. For some people, they may not see any flaw with themself, even if quick to find them in others. Unfortunately, with survivors as us, I think it more common that we will find all flaws we THINK we have, even if others tell us good things.

Being aware of these 'blind spots' is probably a good first step in eliminating them.

Take good care of yourself.

leosha